I’m losing my mind

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I don’t know what’s wrong with me ..
I’m okay , then I’m not okay
I’m happy , then I’m not happy
& it’s not like there is anything extremely terribly wrong with my life rn .. but I don’t want to live. I don’t want to be here , I don’t want to be anywhere. I used to feel like I didn’t have purpose , but now I want to open a daycare and become a psychiatrist.. but I just don’t have any hope. It’s like .. I’m f**** exhausted .. I’m so tired & drained & I just don’t want to do this anymore. I have a boyfriend and he’s really sweet , but he’s inconsiderate. like Fr . This morning , I get out the bed at 6am and start cleaning up (which is something I NEVER do) & he gone say some .. ugh ion even wanna type all this out. Just know I feel like I want to die and I’m going to runaway to try to stop myself from doing it . This won’t be my first attempt at Suicide, but I’m going to make it my last . Because this is real ghetto , I don’t like it here . But it’s like something in my brain gone switch , I can already feel it. It’s going to go to , Idc … like I really don’t give a f about anything anymore , to being like “you know what , life really ain’t that bad

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services. Another resource would be www.nami.org for general mental health help.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe and stay strong,
NRS