problem after problem

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when my brother was born when i was 5, i was always the one changing his diapers and stuff cuz my parents were lazy and didnt wanan do it themselves. since i was about 5 idk if my dad has just been stressed or what, but im 15 now and for 10 years i've had to put up with him verbally abusing me. he use to physically abuse me but i guess he stopped that when he found out i wanted to tell someone and get him in trouble. he always tells me how im such a slut, and a stupid crazy **********, im a piece of ********, i dont do anything right, and so on. and my mom just sits aside and lets him say those things, she doesnt stick up for me . i started highschool last year and besides my homelife being pretty crappy, i had a good life, great friends that made me happy. but halfway through the school year everyone just started to be so fake, my best friend was blowing me off and she was the closest person to me. now we arent friends anymore, but i met a boy that im absolutely in love with. he makes me feel great about myself, he knows about my homelife and how crappy it is, he's stuck by my side when i have hard times at home. but this year, i told my parents i was bi and my mom doesnt accept me and she doesnt accept how i look or dress, and she doesnt like being seen in public with me. so she got us a family counselor for us and my counselor told me straight up

you know, most families, if their father was in the military and they have more than one child, one of them ends up being the problem child

she basically told me straight up im a problem child. ive been grounded for 7 months and im not allowed to do anything and ive just been locked up and it's driving me crazy. i have no friends to turn to. since im grounded i dont get to see my boyfriend much anymore so i sneak him inside in the middle of the night. on night we had sex and the condom broke. we're giving it 3 weeks to see if im really pregnant, if i am, there isnt anything i can do about it without telling my parents. im 14 and cant get an abortion without parental consent. and my parents have specifically told me before that if i got pregnant, im gonna get the ******** beat outta me, and they're going to take my life away, ill never see anyone again. they said they were going to send me far far away. if i am pregnant, im going to runaway. i can't get taken away from the only person who has loved and cared for me through everything since ive met him [my boyfriend] and i am most certainly not going to get hit again. i cant turn to other family members. i dont have contact with any family members that dont have there hands full at the moment. i have contact with my grandparents on my mother's side but they have to take care of my aunt who has muscular sclerosis and her two sons who have mental issues, one who has repeatedly tried to molest me and he has tried to drown me in a pool and i told on him and i got yelled at because he is retarded and cant control himself and he got sympathy because i hid in a closet and ignored him for the rest of my vacation.
running away is my only option to stay safe. help :[

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Re: problem after problem

Thank you so much for sharing your story with the National Runaway Switchboard (NRS).

You have certainly gone through very intense situations since you were young. It's very unfortunate that not only your parents treat you this way, but professionals outside of the house are not validating your experiences. Is there anyone other than your boyfriend, that has been able to offer good advice and be supportive to you? Maybe someone at school, teacher, friend, counselor, relative, etc.

The situation that you are enduring and what your parents said they will do to you (because of the possible pregnancy), is something that you should not have to go through and if you feel like your family is abusing you emotionally and physically, you have the right to file an abuse report against them. Children's Protective Services (CPS) is a statewide agency that is supposed to advacate for your safety and well-being. However, we don't know which city and state you are in to provide those for you.

Another national agency that can offer some legal advice and provide options for you is Justice for Children. They work with people where CPS and professional agencies have failed them and can offer you different venues to get some help. They can be reached at 1.800.733.0059.

If you feel like you need to leave immediately and need a safe place to stay, call us at 1.800.RUNAWAY and we can talk a little more about what's going on and can offer local resources for you to contact.

Thank you again for sharing your story and if you are willing and able, call in. We're here 24/7. Best of luck and it's good to hear that your boyfriend is there to support you unconditionally.