I've been feeling really awful lately, and the only thing that's been on my mind is the idea of running away.
I'm sure the main reason why I want to run away is to just start over. I'm tired of my school and the friends I have right now; trying to keep up friendships is exhausting yet, I hate the feeling of abandonment and rejection.
School has just been horrible since i'm failing a lot of classes right now (even though it's only October), and I just don't know how to handle school work well considering my parents haven't been able to afford tutoring and school time itself seems really short.
I don't know what else to explain other than this. Social interaction has just become very tiring to me, yet at the same time the only thing that keeps me motivated to do well (considering there will always be a possibility I might make a good friend finally, but it hasn't happened yet). I don't have a lot of friends and fantasizing about having a good friend in my life gives me some sort of light; but it isn't enough.
I'm guessing I might have some sort of mental disorder affecting me socially, but i'm not sure how I could get that checked out or handled.
Also, it seems like family plays a huge role in someone's decision to run away. Not mine, I think.
My parents aren't married, both of them haven't finished high school, and my mom drinks, while my dad smokes.
They don't do a lot to help me do school work, or help me through any type of mental problems I have.
Anyways, besides that, i'm a 13 year old female living in the US.
Again, I don't know what to do about, all I would like is support.
I'm sure the main reason why I want to run away is to just start over. I'm tired of my school and the friends I have right now; trying to keep up friendships is exhausting yet, I hate the feeling of abandonment and rejection.
School has just been horrible since i'm failing a lot of classes right now (even though it's only October), and I just don't know how to handle school work well considering my parents haven't been able to afford tutoring and school time itself seems really short.
I don't know what else to explain other than this. Social interaction has just become very tiring to me, yet at the same time the only thing that keeps me motivated to do well (considering there will always be a possibility I might make a good friend finally, but it hasn't happened yet). I don't have a lot of friends and fantasizing about having a good friend in my life gives me some sort of light; but it isn't enough.
I'm guessing I might have some sort of mental disorder affecting me socially, but i'm not sure how I could get that checked out or handled.
Also, it seems like family plays a huge role in someone's decision to run away. Not mine, I think.
My parents aren't married, both of them haven't finished high school, and my mom drinks, while my dad smokes.
They don't do a lot to help me do school work, or help me through any type of mental problems I have.
Anyways, besides that, i'm a 13 year old female living in the US.
Again, I don't know what to do about, all I would like is support.
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