F/F Long Distance Relationship

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I live in California and my girlfriend lives in Illinois. I know running away from home just to be with your girlfriend when you're under 18 isn't the smartest thing to do. But I can't bring myself to stay in this house where I can't be myself until I turn 18. My girlfriend is suicidal and I always try to help her through the things she's going through but it's so difficult when I'm so far away. Everday I'm so afraid that she might do something drastic while I'll be here never to hear from her again. She says I'm the only thing that's keeping her from ending it all. I don't know what to do. My parents would ultimately kick me out of the house the moment I turn 18 if I tell them I'm a lesbian but I don't know where to go after that. I won't have any money since they don't let me have a job until I'm 18 and I'd have no where to stay. My girlfriend offered for me to stay at her house for a while but her mother doesn't approve of that and would not let me stay. If i could find a way to leave before I'm 18 I could handle things myself. But I have no idea what I could do for that to happen. My parents aren't abusive in the traditional sense but they will not accept me for who I am. I already mentioned I might be a lesbian and they told me I'd have to leave the house the moment I turn 18 because of our religion. I need help!

sorry for the very long story

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Hi there,
Thanks for reaching out. It sounds like you are in a really tough spot; a lot is going on around you. It is hard to not feel accepted by your parents. Then with your girlfriend being suicidal and so far away, that is a lot on one person’s plate. We are here to help.
First, if you haven’t already heard of it, you may want to offer your girlfriend the national suicide prevention hotline: 1-800-273-8255. They also have an online chat. You or your girlfriend can reach them 24/7 for help and support surrounding your girlfriend’s feelings. It is incredibly difficult to feel like someone’s life depends on you. That puts a lot of pressure on you so make sure you are taking care of yourself too. Also, you can call the LGBT National hotline at 1-888-843-4565 or the LGBT National youth talkline at 1-800-246-7743. These resources may help in the feelings you have around your parents not being accepting of you.
You are smart to think through options before just leaving the home. We are here 24/7 so call us anytime or chat on our website. We can provide more referrals too if you need. Best of luck!