ok i'm not really sure how to say all of this... well first off my grandfather died in January and my gf broke up with me last year around thanksgiving. it seemed like my 'friends' dont care about my problems anymore. I've talked to counselor at my school and she said i needed to talk to a professional but i never told my parents. I used to think about hurting myself to the point where i'm with my grandfather but i decided i really really dont want to. i think i've had depresssion for a number of years cuz WebMD said so and so did the counselor. I feel like no1 cares for me. I mean my family loves me and all but it seems like no1 at school does. it seemed like the counselor just wanted to pawn me off to the pros too... i tried to tell my ex that i've had suicide but thoughts but ever since that shes avoided me even more. we used to be best friends since like 2nd grade and i just love her parents to death but shes changed... shes just a big flirt and has evry other guy talking about her. then when i try to tell sum other friends theyre like wow you need help and im like NO CRAP IM COMING TO YOU FOR THAT!!! but then they blow me off. and then tonite i asked sum of my 'friends' if they wanted to come over for some burgers and to chill then they got all indignant on me and saying how they cant cuz they dont have a ride and then i go home and start texting a friend and it turns out THEY WENT TO SUM1S HOUSE!!!!! i don't get it! it's like they don't want me. and it's not like i can find new friends cuz i go to a tiny 3a school... so theres like no1. I just want away from it all. help! i need somebody! help!
SIgned,
A messed up, confused, hurt 15 year old
SIgned,
A messed up, confused, hurt 15 year old
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