not going to make it to 14

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I have so much on my mind and it's extremely stressful. I'm a very suicidal person, but my parents just think I'm dumb. My suicidal thoughts have subsided, but now I just want to run away. No one will help me with money or a home. If I don't get out of here I may kill myself. If I were to leave I could never go back... my parents would hit me. I'm not abused though. Someone has to help me leave here or I might completely lose it. The only thing I ask for is to never face the people I live with again. Please, please, please. I'm too scared to talk on the phone because of my anxiety, but anything is better than staying here and dealing with family, school, and "friends"

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RE: not going to make it to 14

Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out and posting on the National Runaway Safeline bulletin board. It was very brave of you to share your story here. It sounds like things are really tough for you at home. It sounds difficult to not have your parents take your suicidal thoughts seriously.

It sounds like you feel that you have to get away or you might hurt yourself. Have you ever considered talking to someone when you feel suicidal? One option when you're feeling that way is to call the National Suicide Hotline. They are available to talk 24/7 and their number is 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

If you were to leave home, where would you go? We can help you brainstorm some of your options if you'd like. We also have resources we may be able to offer you in your area that may come in use if you leave home. We are here to listen and to help in any way we can. If you'd like to discuss this further, please consider calling us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929), where we're available 24/7. It sounds like you might feel more comfortable with communicating online, so in that case, we also have a chat service from 4:30 to 11:30 pm Central time each night, which you can initiate by going to www.1800runaway.org and clicking the red button in the upper corner. We hope to hear from you soon.

Best of luck,

NRS

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not going to make it to 14

As of right now I don't have anyone to help me run away, and I don't have the necessities needed either. I wanted to know if it would be best to go to a homeless shelter, or if I should stay at home a little longer until I am able to get enough money to be on my own for a bit. My decision has been made to leave this year, or I might seriously consider/attempt suicide. Your input is greatly appreciated, because you're all I seem to have left.

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Re: not going to make it to 14

Hello,

Thanks for reaching out to us even during this very intense time. We're very sorry to hear that things at home aren't right for you. We will try and advocate for you as best as we can.
It seems like you're fairly certain you're going to be leaving home but you're wanting to have a safety plan. Can you tell us a little bit about what's going on at home that's forcing you to feel this way?

If you're feeling suicidal you don't have to feel that or go through that alone. There is an organization that will speak with you.
National Suicide Hotline
1800-273-TALK (8255)

You can also call us. We can help explore your situation some more and talk about options and resources that are available to you. We can even talk about a plan of action for whatever it is you decide to do. You main focus would be your safety. Please call us at 1800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). We're anonymous, confidential and available 24/7. We're here to listen, here to help.

And if that doesn't work for you, try our live chat program on our website from 430p-1130pm (central standard time.)



Best,
NRS

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I am not abused, but my thoughts and emotions are basically thrown away, and I have no one to turn toward to when I need support. My siblings are NEVER happy with each other, and almost always someone is fighting. We've never been close and I think my parents are fighting a little more than they used to. I was already told that they might not be together in another 10 years, and I'm not good at making choices. I was faced with this problem in elementary school but luckily things never got intense. My parents don't understand mental illnesses very well so they just think it's made-up stuff that basically means you're a lazy person who has nothing better to do than complain. Instead of receiving support I just get yelled at and told I have to 'mature' because I am a boy and that's all I can do. All I'm asking for is a family that will actually accept me for who I am... My biggest fear at the moment is being disowned for being LGBT. Leaving has its pros and cons, so I'm still deciding when to leave, and where I'll go. I have absolutely no one to go to, but I know I just have to leave. Suicide would solve all my problems... but I don't want to die... Thank you for everything you do..

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Hello,

Thank you so much for reaching out to National Runaway Safeline. Things at home sound like they have been pretty difficult for you. We are sorry to hear that so many things have been making you struggle lately. You've shared a lot about your parents, the way that they treat you as well as each other. You said that they do not understand mental illnesses. Have you ever considered family counseling?
If you were able to discuss your issues with a counselor that has an educated understanding of what you might be going through, they might be able to advocate for you and help you to communicate the things that you have been experiencing to your parents.
NRS offers a mini, similar version of this; conference calling with youth and a parent while the liner acts as a mediator to facilitate the discussion between the two of you and make sure each party is equally heard. You can always call into our hotline at 1 800 RUNAWAY (786 2929), we are available 24/7.
You said that you've been thinking about leaving but you don't know where you would go. We have a large database of shelters here, and we would be more than willing to provide you with the number of the one closest to you. We do know that when minors are trying to enter a shelter, sometimes they contact guardians before they let you in, but sometimes they let you wait a few days. It is all dependent on the specific shelter. We also offer conference calling out to shelters as well for youth under the age of 20, so we could be on the line with you to make sure any questions that you had got answered.
You have shared with us that you believe suicide would solve all your problems. It doesn't sound like you want to die, but how long have you been feeling this way? We want to provide you with two great numbers that you can always call whenever you feel this way:
Trevor Hotline (GLBT Suicide) 866 488 7386
GLBT National Hotline 888 843 4564
We hope to hear from you again soon, either on our chat which is open 4:30pm to 11:30pm CST, or if you call in to our hotline anytime 1800 RUNAWAY (786 2929).
Good luck and stay safe,
NRS

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I have made comments about family counseling, but that is not something my parents are willing to do. They think they are right one-hundred percent of the time. The only thing I ask for is to never face them again, should I run away. I am afraid that they would hurt me if they had the chance. I have been feeling suicidal since December of 2013. The suicidal thoughts mainly started because of bullying. Are there any places located around Savannah, GA? Maybe I could just run away to another town instead... This is all to much to handle, and I am just ready to leave. If I wasn't so afraid, I'd already be out. Are there any places/people that could keep me away from my family if this turned to be a legal issue? All I ask for is a new family that would actually accept me for who I am. Please answer soon

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Hi there,

Thanks for contacting us again. We're sorry to hear that they are not willing to do family counseling, but it was a good thing for you to bring up. This might be something that you could explore again if it was not that recent that you discussed it. Any time that you are feeling unsafe, you can always call 911. We can provide the number for Child Protective Services in Savannah, GA as well.
That number is (912) 651 2216. You have a right to feel safe in your home. You asked about this turning into a legal issue. We want to let you know that running away is not illegal, it is considered a status offense so typically if the police find you, they just bring you back home unless there is abuse.
You said that if you weren't so afraid, you would already be out. Safety is always our first priority, and it sounds like it's one of yours as well which is a good thing. These are some things we always want youth to think about before leaving home:

• What else can I do to improve my home situation before I leave?
• What would make me stay at home?
• How will I survive?
• Is running away safe?
• Who can I count on to help me?
• Am I being realistic?
• Have I given this enough thought?
• What are my other options?
• If I end up in trouble, who will I call?
• When I return home, what will happen?

Again, you can always call in if you'd like to talk more about your specific situation more, or join us on chat.

Good luck,
NRS

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seriously going to leave or die

My feelings have gotten stronger, and I really want to run away. If I can't leave here in the next few days I'll commit suicide. I have no supplies so I won't last long... Please help me, I need to leave this place...

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Re: not going to make it to 14

Hello,

If you have contacted NRS today through another means (for example, live chat) for the same issue, it would be helpful to let us know that you have already contacted us. NRS understands it takes courage to reach out for help; therefore, we would like to minimize the need for you to repeat your situation and avoid offering you duplicate services.

Since you've mentioned you are suicidal, you are welcome to contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ They even have a Live Chat.

We also found a shelter in Savannah, GA: http://www.greenbriarchildrenscenter...y-shelter.html. Hopefully that helps. Best of luck!

-NRS