Love struggles

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So my bestfriend, of four years, and I have always been really close. Like SUPER close, we'd say 'I love you' and 'I'll miss you' when we say goodbye, we'd hug each other and cuddle a lot, and we both are protective of each other and do anything for each other. But when I got a boyfriend a few months ago- I'm bisexual by the way- whenever I kissed him I thought of her. After I broke up with him the feelings for my bestfriend intensified. Throughout that time period I was going to run away from home with her, thankfully we talked each other out of it, but then I started liking her even more. So about a month ago I came to a total realization of my feelings and told one of my friends. She seemed excited about it and helped me. That weekend my bestfriend spent the weekend with me and it was terrible. That Saturday I was tickling her and we almost kissed, then that night her ex boyfriend whom she still had feelings for asked me if I like-liked him. After that I left the room and called my friend and told her to tell my bestfriend about the feelings I had. She did tell her but we never talked about it again. Afterwards a lot of stuff happened and my bestfriend and I had an on/off friendship. She told my friend she's talk about it with me but we haven't yet. It's been over a month and things are starting to get better but I don't know, we're just no as close as we were a month ago. I know she's bi too so that wouldn't matter but maybe she's hiding something from me. She doesn't show emotions like most people do. Also, she's spending the night with me this weekend and we're seeing a move together just the two of us and she knows that it'll only be us. But what do I do? My friend said that she likes me back but
I really don't know. I just have absolutely no one to talk to right now and my depression is taking over.

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re: Love struggles

Hi there,

Thanks for reaching out tonight. It sounds like you're going through a lot right now with your bestfriend. It sounds like you had a great relationship with her. It's must be frustrating to have that relationship change after you expressed your feelings for her. It's also can be scary to put yourself out there, hoping for her to like you back, but not really knowing for sure. That was really brave and impressive of you to say something. So let's see how we can help you out tonight.

You ask a good question. It can be really tough to figure out what to do when we are directly involved with something. Sometimes it can be helpful to write down what you want to say to make sure that you don't go off script or say anything that you will regret. Another good idea might be to reach out to a trusted friend or family member who could give you some guidance on this.

One good resource is a website called www.sexetc.org. They are a website that is totally dedicated to open, honest and safe relationships. They might have something that could guide you through this.

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