i want to run away because of my mom.

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I am 11 y/o and my screen name will be evelynn. I hate my school life and my home life. At school poeple start rumors that im a lesbian and the im pansexual. Ive only told a few people im pansexual. Idk hwo the truth got out. (before igo on i will sayi identify as emo which will make the rest of my story clear). Everyday people ask me if i cut. At the end of the day i just wanna be left alone. “ BUT ALL I DO IS LEAVE YOU ALONE!!!” is what my mom says. Shell yell at the stupidest things. A lot of times i will cry because i feel rejected. The song Unsteady by X Ambassadors basically resembles my mood 24/7. I hate being treated like this. One morning my mom yelled at me about how i dont love her “BECAUSE THATS HOW ALL OTHER EMOS ARE” so basically she stereotyped me. Which btw I HATE BEING STEREAITYPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive actually cut once, burnt my skin a couple times, nearly hung myself, and lastly ive been wanting to overdose on sleeping pills and hope that id never wake up. I wanna move out AT MY CURRENT AGE and become a new person. My mom is fine that im pan but i dont feel right that ive told her. I cant talk to her about how i feel because when i do she says things like “but evelynn… i do everything for you… why couldnt you be happy?” i wish shed just listen to me. Sometimes i feel itll all be better if i am put up for adoption or all better if i was dead. Shes really strict too. I feel like i cant be trusted. My dad isnt home often but when he is if i get him mad, HE GETS MAD. sometimes i dont feel safe with my opinions or my sexuality. People all say im too young to know and it adds more stress to the fact that i will love who i want and you cant have a say in this. I want to leave this place. I wish i could fall asleep and live life in the dream world. My mom adds up SO MUCH stress on my life. Ive shown up to class crying and i had to lie saying it was because of my allergies. I dont like lying to the only people i can talk to but i feel like my feelings are… immature…. Can you help me with my feelings??

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re: I want to run away because of my mom

Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out to us. It seems like you are going through things with your mom that make you feel unsupported and worn-out. We imagine that must be really tough to deal with. We are here to listen and support you in any way that we can, and we can help you find resources that can help you cope with these feelings. You do not have to face this alone, and there is so much help out there for you. If you are thinking about hurting yourself, the National Suicide Hotline could be a good resource for you. You can check them out at www.youmatter.suicidepreventionlifeline.org, or you can call 1-800-273-8255 for help and support any time. It sounds like it may also be helpful to talk with someone at the LGBT National Hotline for support as well. They can be reached at 1-888-843-4564. We recognize that this is causing you a lot of frustration. We are here 24/7 to talk if you need to.

Take Care.
NRS