Help me!

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I am a 12 year old girl and I want to run away. I hate my life, I want to run away and because
I have severe depression and anxiety most of the time I will think about committing suicide but then I will end up stopping myself and thinking “if I do kill myself what am I going to benefit from that?!?!” My aunt always ignore me and if there is a problem she will never understand my point of view she will always hit my head against the wall or slap me some times she hits me in my back so hard that I wouldn’t be able to breathe she always leaves me alone with my little cousin she goes out for hours an hours sometimes for even the slightest mistake she will start yelling at me two days ago me and my best friend got into a fight and we ended our relationship and that just really pissed me out
because she was the only friend I actually had also I am a part of the LGBTQ+ community I am lesbian and and my parents are all homophobic plus that I am Muslim and I don’t know what to do about it my aunt is always just Eating, sleeping, or going out she always expects me to do the cleaning and when I am done she will say “ you did nothing” and it just pisses me of she never has time for me and my cousin i am also failing 6th grade and it’s really been hard for me I am barely getting any sleep to the point where I am I starting to hallucinate I really think I might going insane if I don Leave but also she might report this to he police and I don’t want to be found even if I do leave
can you please help me?...

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Thanks for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. You made a great first step to finding the help that you may need. It sounds like you are going through a lot and the people around you are not being supportive. You deserve to be treated with respect, to experience acceptance and to feel safe.

We want you to know that you are strong for having gone through so much already. It is perfectly okay to deviate from what others or the common population believe to be “normal”. You’re bravery and resilience is so admirable. You are so strong for having gone through so much without having the acceptance that you do deserve for just being you. Remember that you are not alone. If you ever want to talk more about what you are experiencing or get additional support we are here 24/7 at 1800-RUNAWAY or our live chat service. The GLBT National Hotline at 1888-843-4564 is another option to gain great support from those that are familiar with the issues and experiences of those that are also a part of the LGBTQ community. You can access their website link bellow to utilize all the other possibly useful resources they have to offer: http://www.glbthotline.org/

You mentioned that you were considering the options that may be best for you. By all means, if you do fear for your safety either now or in the future, do not hesitate to take the necessary steps to regain your safety. This may mean calling the authorities or possibly reporting the things you may be experiencing. Other options to think about may be other family members, friends, or a trusted adults that would be able to provide you with support or a safe place to stay. It is great that you thinking ahead. Should you feel like leaving home is best, it may be a good idea to think about how you will provide necessities for yourself such as food, clothing, showers, healthcare and other basic needs. You may want to also consider how your parent’s will react to you leaving without permission. We are not legal experts here, but typically as a minor (under the age of 1 you need permission from your parents to leave home. It is not illegal to runaway, but it would mean that your parents could file a runaway report with the police. This is usually done in an effort to try to return you home as the police are required to do so.

We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.

If you can give us a call at 1-800-RUNAWAY or reach out through Live Chat we can try to find some youth shelters that may be near your city and state by utilizing our database of resources. We can also try to call out to shelters with you or on your behalf to advocate for you.

Stay Strong,
NRS