Uh, so Hi! I've never tried anything like this and never had... But, I guess it's worth a shot? I'm sort of desperate at this point. So, background information. I'm 15, turning 16 in a few months. I have a 21 year old sister who isn't living with my biological mom like I am. My parents are divorced, my mom remarried. Okay? Okay. So... While my sister was living here, with my mom, my mom always would give her a full page of chores to do as a list. Usually my sister would get them done, she didn't have a job at this time so she was alright. She then got a job. She asked my mom to lessen the list since she can't clean the house every day and work. My mom said she would and the list just went back to its usual state after a week. This went on for a while until my sister couldn't take it and quit her job. This repeated, my sister getting a job only for her to quit a few months later. Constantly, my mom would hold that over her head,"You can't even hold a job for more than 3 months" ex. While at the same time coming to me every now and then and saying,"Don't turn out like your sister. Graduate instead of getting a GED." Always using that when I wasn't doing good in a subject in school. Saying I'd turn out like my sister and never be able to get a good job. She still does this to this day. My sister moved out a few months after her 21st birthday to live with my biological dad. He lives in a camper. So, not really the best living conditions due to the size. She seems happy enough though. When I'm with my dad he's constantly berating my mom and saying how manipulative she is and such. Which I'm sure is manipulative on his part. My mom has major anger issues, once coming home from work screaming and yelling and stomping off into her room to take a bath. Now, normally she would do this if she "had a bad day" (Which, mind you, just so happens to be every other day) and so after she was in there for a bit I went in and asked if she had a bad day. She replied with,"No. It was just cold outside." I promptly left, rather angry that she basically threw a tantrum over the weather. While my sister had lived here they constantly fought, my sister pointing out when my mom was being unreasonable. Now that she's left, my step dad is too cowardly to stand up to her. I'm too young, whenever I try to point something out I'm just told to stay out of it or threatened with having my things taken. Lately my dad has been trying to point it out to her which just leads to screaming and yelling and him eventually backing down. There isn't a day that goes by lately that isn't filled with people yelling. Granted, it isn't usually at me any more but it still effects me. I don't want to hear people yelling and screaming over the stupidest things. I have an Anxiety Disorder. Funny thing is; I don't need to take my meds when I'm with my dad. Only with mommy dearest. One could argue that that's because I don't do school with my dad, to which I'll say that he's helped me with homework while I was off meds for weeks in a row. My mother also convinced a doctor to prescribe me with Adderal and Sertraline. These two drugs combined are seriously dangerous, it effected me very much. I was around 6-7 at the time and I believe it effected me mentally, permanently. I want to live with my dad but hate the camper, it's way too crowded and my dad has said that when I turn 16 he'll buy a condo. But I'm just scared. I have pets here, I have so much stuff here. I have a cat that sleeps with me every night and it's gotten to the point where it's hard to sleep without him. I have my guitar, fish, phone, everything my mom has bought me one way or another. I also do love this house and my bed, and well, I still love my mom despite myself. I've made friends, I love them all dearly and my dad has promised to get the condo near enough to my school to stay there. But my friends won't be able to go to my house in this new place, too far. I'm just in a huge... pickle. I want to leave now but I can't really. Also, when I turn 16 my mom will have a battle with my dad in court. She's told me this several times and so has my step dad. I believe her considering she's already taken my dad to court roughly 3 times. I'm just scared and I don't know what to do. My dad isn't really good, he's pretty crappy too. My mom is just worse. I just don't know. Maybe this is normal. Maybe it's not. I'm too scared to tell anyone else, besides I listen to all of my friends problems but they never want to listen to mine. I doubt they'd want or even care to listen to any of this. So, I'm reaching out on the Internet... Thank you.
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