15 & issues

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Hello. I recently turned 15, but I have some issues that have been occurring for nearly a year. I feel like I've been going through some level of verbal abuse. Most of the time, my parents are reasonable. However, for the past year, I've had issues with my dad. He has random outbursts of anger, and more often than not, directs them at me. I've been called "worthless", "slutty", "a ****", "stupid", and told that he wishes beating was legal. Told I'll go nowhere in life. (Although, I have a 4.0 and offers from colleges). My parents know I've had depression, and I've gone to therapy for it. But this is really taking its toll on me. At one point my father told the family that he couldn't stand to be around me, and either I moved out, or him. I don't want to report anything, because I'm the only one who gets treated like this. My three younger siblings get treated good, and I don't want to split them from the family. I've tried talking about it with my dad, but he either laughs at me or yells at me. He's threatened to make my life miserable if I tell anybody what he says. My mom just seems scared, she'll just tell me he's right and try not to talk. I just want to know what my options are, I don't want to runaway, or get in trouble with the law. Or do anything that could mess up my future. But I'm not sure how to keep coping with this.

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Re: 15 & issues

Thank you for contacting us at the National Runaway Safeline. We are sorry to hear that things have been so hard for you. You don’t deserve to be treated like this. It is great to see that in this hard time to your managing your school activities, thinking about all the options and making use of all your resources. It takes great courage to reach out for help and we are glad that you decided to reach out to us.
We understand that you don’t want to file an abuse report. It seems like you have tried a few options already. It sounds like you have been in therapy before. Have you considered family counseling? Many times family counseling can be helpful in resolving issues. Would staying at a family member or friends’ house with your parents’ permission be an option for you?
In this difficult situation it seems you are trying to do the best you can at school, and thinking about all the alternatives before taking the next steps. If you like you could call us at our 24 hour confidential hotline at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) and we would be happy to just talk to you, explore any other options and provide any resources. You could also live chat with us from 4:30 PM CST to 11:30 PM CST. If you ever decide filing an abuse report might be an option for you, you could contact Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 for knowing about the steps involved in filing an abuse report and the things to keep in mind while doing so.
We wish you the best and hope to hear from you soon.

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NRS