I need to go

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I'm 17 I turn 18 august 9 my mom is a single mother with 3 kids plus one on the way I've been watching her kids since I was 9 years old, everything was OK when it was just Me, her and her fiance when they broke up things between me and her changed we used to be so close but after their relationship was over she seemed to have taken all her anger out on me everyday was something new that I did wrong then she would throw my things threaten to leave me and change her number so I could never find her, I was scared to wear earrings since she always snatched my necklesses off my neck. When she was pregnant with her second child things got better but after he was born it went back to the way it was. It was one day as I was coming home from school she sped up to me and my friends and told me to get in when I got in I could tell she was mad when I asked what was wrong she started going off about things that I haven't done, finally when she dropped me off at home she said that she didn't care about me and that I could go live with my dad but that was never an option. It was like everytime we live in our own place she was always coming at me for things I didn't do. Got back with her second child's father(with is abusive) when I was 14 even though me and her hadn't held a convocation since I was young then I would try to talk to her and watch movies with her but she would choose to be with her abusive boy friend other then me so I just stopped trying and soon started cutting. I still had to watch my little brother just not as mucg since my grandmother came to live with us but she was no a good idea. I had friends for the first time they helped me stop cutting and we hang out a little but soon my mom quit her job said it was cause they lied to get money but then my grandmother told my mom about my friends they weren't bad just a year or 2 older and wild I wasn't upset she told everything just got worst then ever before she blame me for quitting her job and still DOES. We moved in with my uncle since she couldn't pay the bills there she made me delete my Facebook and start homeschooling I finished early but she never logged my hours instead she took my brother and would leave to go with his father for weeks at a time. After a while she was pregnant again with another boy but the father is suppose to be family and is now pregnant again by the she man. But now I'm 17 My mom is trying to do too much she's saying I'm not aloud to get a job but goes back to the family saying I'm not trying to get one says if I leave she's calling the cops even if I'm 18 she won't shut up about petty s**t. And complaining that I don't do s**t and that I'm oh so lazy she just quit her job and I don't know how the hell is she gonna do anything then if I go to jersey with my aunty then everyone is expecting me to give the money I earn to my mom to help her provide for HER soon to be 3 kids not even counting myself she keeps complaining how its so hard to take care of me and how ungraceful I am and how I don't deserve anything. She thinks just cause she has all these kids that I'm gonna live my life watching her them. I need to leave before she has this baby comes in June or I'll never be able to leave.

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RE: I need to go

Hello,

Thank you for contacting us at National Runaway Safeline. Also, thank you for sharing your story. It sounds like things between you and your mother have been tough for quite some time now. It’s very brave of you take this step and try to take charge of your life.
While we aren’t legal experts here, we can speak generally on the topic of leaving home. Since you’re under 18 until August, leaving home before then could be tricky. Again, the laws are different in every state, but if you left and your mother filed a runaway report, you could likely be returned home and whoever was letting you stay with them could be charged with harboring a runaway. If you want to know for sure what could happen, please contact your local police or a legal aid.
This is a lot for anyone to deal with on their own, and it shows how mature you are to try and get away from these difficult problems. While it must be hard to have family expecting you to help them, it certainly is not your legal obligation.
You mentioned your Aunt would let you stay with her, does this sound like something you’d be willing to discuss with your mother? How do you think she’d react?
If you’d like to discuss these issues further or want us to call the police for you, please don’t hesitate to contact us here at 1-800-Runaway. We also have an online chat if you’re unable to call.
Best of luck to you, let us know if we can help!

-NRS