I'm having some issues but I think i'm too young to act on it...

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Hey there! I'm fairly young (only 12) but I'm having quite a few issues at home and have been contemplating running away for a few years now. I've always hated living off my parents and now that my dad lost his job I feel even worse. However, that isn't the only reason. I'm a straight A student, but recently I've gotten some worse grades on assignments. My mom has been all over me about it, and it seems like she's finding any opening she can to stress me out and make me feel worse. I'm currently in therapy for depression, but my therapist won't be available until next year so I can't really talk to her about it.
I am also having an issue with my mom and a boy. He's about two years older than me, and we were dating for a little while. We broke up, and since then my mom has been trying to cut him out of my life even though we miss each other A LOT. She gets REALLY pissed off whenever I watch his Instagram story or talk about him with someone. She's even threatening to report him to the authorities as a PEDOPHILE because he's fifteen and I'm (almost) 13.
My dad also isn't super accepting of my sexuality (pansexual).

My parents have also hit me a few times in my life. (i.e slapped/backhanded, held by the neck against a wall...) They've also come close to hitting me quite a few times recently.
Anyways, I want to GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE, but I'm afraid of getting sent back home by the police...

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Hey there! I'm fairly young (only 12)

Hello,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things in your life right now.
It sounds like you’re fearing that the stress from the situation is getting harder and harder to handle.
We are sorry you are going through a tough emotional time.
It sounds like it has been hard no having your parent’s acceptance of your choices.
You don’t deserve to be threatened or hit by your parent’s or anyone. It is not your fault that they act this way. You have good reason to be upset and frustrated.

Sometimes when things are too stressful it might help to talk with someone about it.
We understand that the therapist you were seeing is not available. Sometimes they have an emergency on call therapist for their patients in crisis.
NRS is here to listen and here to help.
We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.


Our service provides an opportunity to have a safe space to share how you’re feeling.
It might also help bring about some ideas towards solutions that you hadn’t thought of.
This may feel like an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone.
NRS is here to listen and here to help.
We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this troubled time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

You are welcome to discuss your situation and talk about possible options for help.
You did well today by reaching out. Good job.
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 9-1-1 or seek emergency assistance immediately.


Take care,
NRS
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