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**Guest** · 05-08-2020, 12:38 AM

Hello I am a 14 year old female and I have suicidal thoughts and have been told by therapists I may be depressed. My parents are made aware of the situation but they make fun of my thoughts and call me crazy and mentally abuse me. I honestly have no clue what to do at this point because I am mentally exhausted and I just want to be myself again but I cannot because when I am myself my parents don’t think I act like who they think I am but they don’t know who I am and I fear they may never. My parents beat me, punch me, make me bleed, and I do not know if I should classify this as abuse but I have been told it is in the past. my situation at home is that my mother and father live in two different cities and they both have completely toxic boy/girlfriends my mother’s boyfriend is abusive, he goes through my stuff, he has touched me before in an inappropriate way, he makes me feel insecure, he also has cheated on my mother and has hit me and my sister. my father’s girlfriend drinks the nights away and gets very dangerous when she is under the influence of drugs and alcohol, she throws things around and breaks multiple things upon the house, she has also beaten her kids in the past and freaks me out a little bit. at my mothers and fathers house we have barely any food and they work all of the time so they feed themselves.my mother punches me and scratches me to the point I have cuts on my arms and I am bleeding, my father beats me until I have purple bruises on my body and until the point it hurts to stand up. I have cut myself before and my parents have done absolutely nothing about it, it’s come to points where I have almost bled out and I have written many many suicide notes but they still act like I am fine but I look tired and I never eat all the time. I try and sleep but flash backs come back to them screaming at me because I do not understand a test or I get a question incorrect on my homework, I ask them to help me with it but they tell me to figure it out on my own but it’s so confusing and I do not understand one bit. In school my teachers and counselors know my mother and father ¨abuse¨ me but I think they do not want to look into it. My mother has tried bringing me to therapy with her to build our relationship but she has talked with the therapist beforehand telling her I over exaggerate and I am a manipulative liar, but I honestly think she tells herself that because when I confront her about the way he treats me. my father has extreme anger issues and has me raising myself and my older sister, in fact tonight my sister had snuck out and my father forced me to find her and I could not so he proceeded to call me lazy but I tried so hard to find her. I can’t wait any longer and I fear one day I may strike out and do something to end it all. I have no clue what is wrong with me but I have an urge to die, it gets to points where I have to lock myself in my closet with absolutely no sharp things or dangerous items in sight. Help.

**Guest** · 05-11-2020, 03:03 PM

I really hate the house im living in and i want to move in with my aunt. my whole family dislikes my dad. i dont understand him because he always tells me he wished id go somewhere but doesn't want me to move out. he has this stupid girlfriend and shes the only thing he cares about. the other day we got into a fight and the only name i seem to have anymore is "dumbass" i really want to leave but i cant because he keeps an alarm and cameras out so we cant go anywhere.the only thing we ever do is argue and he blames it all on me. ive honestly given up and i just feel helpless.

**Guest** · 05-15-2020, 03:51 PM

I'm 13 going to turn 14 soon and I've never been comfortable in my home, I've struggled with mental health. My parents had controlled me my whole life, they always want me to be perfect. I have older siblings that are already in their 20's so basically it leaves me alone. I've always tried my best to please my parents but most of the time we always fight, my parents have control of my diet, bedtime, phone time, and the friends I have. My mom talks ******** on my family members and my friends but she acts innocent, my parents act like they know what's best for me when they don't even believe in Depression. I tried multiple times to have a serious talk with my parents but my mom acted innocent and my dad just laughed at. My brothers are really smart and they always listen to my parents and that's why to this day one of my brothers has the anxiety to talk to them or ask them for something, My parents always compare me to my brothers or other people, I just want to wake up one day and have my parents listen to me and what I have to say without them thinking I'm a joke.

**Guest** · 05-18-2020, 07:24 AM

im 14 i love my family so i want to move out and start a life of my own

**Guest** · 05-20-2020, 08:02 AM

I'm 14 and I've been wanting to move out for 3-4 years. I have a few friends nearby who would take me in. I just can't stand it where I am anymore. My mother have experience some abuse in here past and she takes it out on me. When she does, she doesn't stop screaming at me. It gets really bad and it'll be over little things like, I forgot to clean up usaully something little. She also calls me names and and threatens me. She acts like my little sister is an angel and treats her like one but looks at me like im nothing but a waste of air. I don't think I can take it anymore.

**Guest** · 05-25-2020, 06:39 PM

So I reported something almost 2 years ago and was called a liar. I still live in the house although for 7 months I was in a facility. when I came home it was clear you screw up you get sent off again. I dont mind that much I got to act like a kid while i was gone. But I need out of this house and away from this this house is toxic and detrimental to my future. they say dont hang out with friends who share the same interest meaning girls that like girls. they blame my girlfriend for me being pan. I can not do this anymore and I honestly feel like a burden because aparently me and my friends who helped me through my dad's death "broke my family" is how they put it by reporting my grandmothers husband. and i was told i am a liar by the state of Tennessee. i need out can you help?

**Guest** · 05-27-2020, 04:17 AM

I hate my life so bad that I'm planning on jumping into the beach next to my house. Life has become so messed up lately. And besides all this COVID-19 thing, my mom's boyfriend is here and he's a very wicked person. He even dropped a glass cup on my leg and my mum simply said " you deserve it for ruining my life ". My boyfriend is also very concerned about me and insists that I should go and stay in his place until we get some solid legal help. But I am afraid that if she finds me, She might ruin my boyfriend's life as well. I'm currently 14 and a half and my boyfriend is 17. His parents are totally fine with me moving in. So what should I do?

**Guest** · 06-01-2020, 07:25 PM

I’m 13 years old turning 14 on june 12 and my mom abuses me a lot. I used to get 90%s in my grades and now I am hoping to pass at least with 60%s. We just moved to Canada and my mom wants me to take over on ALL of her responsibilities including our migration processes, documents, family, house keeping, + my own like school, homeworks, personal things. Me and my mom sleep in one bed. My dad loves me but I’m phobic of my mom. I’ve tried drinking lysol with milk to kill myself. I cry every night. I have more than 5 illnesses. My mom abuses me physically, mentally, and socially. She told me I could die whenever I want and I never meant anything to her. To be honest, even before this, I’ve been planning my death since I was 10. I had no real sister (my adopted sister is 7 years old). I always wanted a sister not for me to play but to replace me with being their real child. I try extreme and slow death suicide like poisoning or having a cardiac or any major illness on purpose. Today, I haven’t drank a drop of water for weeks, I eat half of the food I used to eat, I overdose on unprescribed medicines of adults. I randomly cry everywhere. I used to abuse my sister physically and that can’t let me be at rest. I was jealous when she smiles or when she was happy cuz I always wanted her to cry, and be sad. you can see marks on her body. My mom used to beat her so much. She uses heavy and hard shoes, broomsticks, anything heavy and hard and used to hit us on face, neck, back, head, arm, legs, stomach, anywhere. Last month, my mom twisted my arm then pulled my hair and pushed me to the floor where she was over me and hit my nose with (chyawanprash) bottle, it’s really heavy and hard, my nose was swelling and bleeding badly. I almost stopped breathing for like an hour. My mom hates me. It’s better for me to die rather than taking all of these. I write diaries everyday and describe my mood, intentions and everything so if i die one day, they would know what it was like being me, what i felt and what kind of life i had. i know they spent pools of money of me but money doesn't buy happiness, love does. And today, as of internet, i have severe anxiety, and major depression, my parent sees me as wooden robot who has no feelings and extremely perfect that’s why i don’t have those guts to tell my mom about how i feel so i just tell every single things to my only 2 friends.

**Guest** · 06-06-2020, 07:44 PM

i cant deal with this anymore. my mom doesn’t even try to listen to me and always yells at me for stuff i have no control over. she favours my brother and i try to call her out on it then she hits me. it’s unreal sometimes and i cant handle it. right before i started making this comment, my brother started calling me a a fatty and that i should kill myself (he’s 9 btw) and so i told him to stop and he punched me. so i hit him back and my mom saw that. she hit me and told me to shut the f* up about it because it always starting fights. i tried to tell her about it and she just doesn’t listen. i’m so sorry if this sounds annoying or anything but i just don’t know what to do. i’m only 14 years old, i have 0 friends, and i don’t have anywhere to go. i cant stay here. i’ve been wanting to move out for a couple years now and i just need somewhere to go because if i don’t find somewhere, i don’t know what i’m gonna do

**Guest** · 06-07-2020, 07:11 AM

Im 13 turning 14, I live with my mum, dad, 3 younger sisters and my grandma with dementia. My parents are always working so are never home unless early in the morning or late at night. My grandma has dementia for 15 years and wets the bed every night, and poops herself everyday, I'm constantly cleaning her fesses and showing her and I'm just sick of it. My grandmas has stopped listening to anyone, is constantly trying to go 'home', not knowing where 'home is. I share a room with my 8 year old sister, then my 10 and 12 yr old sister share a room. My sisters don't do anything, they just sit in their rooms on their devices, but somehow don't get yelled at. I'm constantly yelled at and hit, the other night my dad was constantly hitting me when I wouldn't eat a bit of meat left on my plate cause it was that gross faty stuff. I've started work 2 days ago and work from 10am- 6pm and nothing has gotten done in the house so I've spent all tonight cleaning the house and kitchen up after my sisters. my mum lost it casue I droped a jar of pickles and she started hitting me. I don't have anywhere to go, my dads side is crazy religious and I don't want to have to listen to classical music for the rest of my life. And my mums side is super judgmental. I don't want to live with any of my other friends, 'their parents are crazy', I still love my parents but I'm getting sick of this lifestyle.

To prove that this isn't some auto reply, how many sisters do I have.

**ccsmod15** · 06-07-2020, 07:32 AM

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best.
Also, to answer your question, you have 3 younger sisters.
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

**Guest** · 06-19-2020, 03:41 PM

I'm 14, going on 15, and want to move out. I'm legally disabled and have been looking into getting a service dog as well as receiving Social Security Disability Payments with my doctor and therapist, but my dad keeps making up excuses and refusing. My mom also looked into getting the payments for herself since she physically can't work and my dad said no. I've discovered that my dad is only doing this because he doesn't truly believe that I'm disabled and need the help that I actually do, that and he's ashamed and embarrassed of me. I've had anxiety since I was 6 but it didn't get diagnosed until last year because I told my mom about it and she called me dramatic, so I mentioned it to my doctor and she made my parents find a therapist. I feel stuck. No one listens to me, and the minute I feel like I can confide in my mom, my dad comes home and she turns on me again. I really don't know what to do anymore.

**Guest** · 06-20-2020, 10:41 PM

My parents don’t know what privacy is, they keep saying “when you live in your own place then you can have privacy”
but what my parents don’t understand is that if I could I would leave. They don’t think I would do that but believe me I would I have no where to go but any place except this house.

**Guest** · 06-21-2020, 05:10 AM

i’m 14 and can’t take this anymore, i have wanted to move out for so long now, but no one will take me, my mum said i can’t go to my mates i can only go to my dad. However, my dad don’t want me, so i was told by my mum to call child line to be put in care, sometimes i feel like i’m not worth anything and just don’t want to be here anymore because this is how it’s making me feel. my dad don’t act like a dad to me and now neither does my mum!

**Guest** · 06-23-2020, 05:24 PM

Hi am 13 year old about to turn 14 I try running away At 12 did not succeed my dad drinks every day and gets mad at me most of the time and he screams to hurt my feelings my brother is 17 and he dosent get to do anything I always do everything I get yelled at for his mistakes My dad mentally abuses me am scared of my dad and I usually always have to stay w hem every day am losing all my friends cause of him I have nobody to talk to and I try to harm myself I need help

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