Okay, so I've lived with my grandparents since I was about 4. My moms in jail, my dad got out in April '10. I've never liked it here, I hate how they parent, my grandpa, my dads stepfather, had two daughters with another women before my grandmother. My grandmother already had a son, my dad, when she got married to my step-grandfather. They had a son, he's 23 now. He still lives here. All four of those kids had a drug/acholicism issue before they turned 25. They all have never been married and have kids [except the youngest one, he doesn't have kids] My grandparents are raising myself and two other of their grandchildren, there are 6 grandkids in all, all the same way. I have already been going down the path that my mom did, and I don't like it, I contemplated.
killing myself for the longest time, I have scars in too many places, I have blood stained shirts that I can't throw away because my grandmother WILL find them, and they'll send me to the retreat again. I need to get
away. Now. I hate how we get treated. I can do well, not get introuble for months, I mess up once, it's back to "you're just like your mom, you can't do anything" I just want to get away, I've thought about this for a long time, there is no way I will be able to live with my mom before I turn 18. My father is still in shock about me not being a little girl anymore like I was when he left. I cannot deal with this life anymore. I was just wondering if I get caught after I get away, what will happen? Will I get put in foster care? Because I have talked to a few of my friends the are/have been in the fostercares around here and they all said that they're pretty decent. I would more then likely stay with my moms mother for the time being, if they found out she was hiding me, would she get in trouble? I just need to hear some opinions. And I'm 14. My birthday is in July. I have 4 more years, I can't be here that much longer. And I'm not a normal 14 year old. I've been through alot more then an adult should go through, so I hate being treated young. I am perfectly capable of taking care of me. Please? Help?
killing myself for the longest time, I have scars in too many places, I have blood stained shirts that I can't throw away because my grandmother WILL find them, and they'll send me to the retreat again. I need to get
away. Now. I hate how we get treated. I can do well, not get introuble for months, I mess up once, it's back to "you're just like your mom, you can't do anything" I just want to get away, I've thought about this for a long time, there is no way I will be able to live with my mom before I turn 18. My father is still in shock about me not being a little girl anymore like I was when he left. I cannot deal with this life anymore. I was just wondering if I get caught after I get away, what will happen? Will I get put in foster care? Because I have talked to a few of my friends the are/have been in the fostercares around here and they all said that they're pretty decent. I would more then likely stay with my moms mother for the time being, if they found out she was hiding me, would she get in trouble? I just need to hear some opinions. And I'm 14. My birthday is in July. I have 4 more years, I can't be here that much longer. And I'm not a normal 14 year old. I've been through alot more then an adult should go through, so I hate being treated young. I am perfectly capable of taking care of me. Please? Help?
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