I Cant get Through The Pain

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I Dont Understand Why My Family Hates Me So Much. Its Like I Dont Even Matter. Im Just A Simple Factor In Their Life. Im Like The Fly They Cant Swat Away. Like The Kind that Always Buzzes In Yur Ear. Yeah Thats Me. And All Those Words That Look Like they Wouldnt Hurt; Hurt The Most. I Rather Be Phiscally abused For My Whole Life than Be Verbally Abused. With Phisical Abuse The Scars Go Away, But Verbal Abuse Lasts a Lifetime. And Im Sick Of My Own Dad.....To Him Im a Dumb***, A Hood***, A Trouble Maker, And I Can Always Do Better Than That. But Sometimes He Doesnt Get It Maybe I Cant Do Better Than That! Why Do I always Have To Do Better Than That? My Dear Princess Of A sister Doesnt. Oh But Wait Shes Perfect I Forgot....She Doesnt Even Have to Try. And All The Housework That "Doesnt Get Done" Ummm Thats My Problem. And If My Sister Doesnt Do Her Share Thats My Problem too. Im Just Sick of The Weight On My Shoulders. Oh And My Sister Can Call Me a W****A S*** A B***** Anything She Wants And Hits Me. Im Her Punching Bag. And I wanna Leave Forever.....:/

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

Hello,

We truly appreciate you taking the time to reach out to us at the National Runaway Switchboard for support and resources. We are here to offer options but not to give advice. We feel that given the opportunity to assess what the next steps ought to be in your situation, it is likely that you will derive from our contacts some greater understanding on how to better protect yourself or cope with what seems like a very stressful situation.

You certainly do not deserve to be called such things. How long has this been happening and have you talked to anyone else about it? It must be hard for you thinking this matter through or living it out on your own without much else to do to solve it right away. How do you describe what is happening right now? How do you articulate this to others you trust? We ask you this because we are not in the position to tell you what to do or force you to think about things a certain way. We are here to explore options and to help you figure out better ways to overcome some of these troubles you face. However, we cannot always guarantee the results you need.

We are a 24 hour a day crisis line. We view your safety as first priority. Do you feel safe at home? We are mandated reporters here at NRS but still operate a confidential and anonymous hotline. We can report any sort of wrongdoing at home if you gave us certain info for your father but if you wish to call us directly to speak more about it, you can reach us at 1800RUNAWAY.

Is there anyone you can stay with if you had the choice and if you were to speak to your parents together to allow you some time away from home? It is perhaps beneficial to get away but that still requires cooperation by other family members also. How about creating a schedule that allows you more time in the community doing extracurricular activities in order to get away more? It really sounds like a stressful situation for you. We want to help and hope you can call us soon. Good luck.

-NRS

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

To Answer Your Questions: This Has Been Happening Since Like December. And I Have Told 2 of My Best Friends. 1 Of them Would Like To Runaway With Me. I explain It To Them as Verbal Abuse. I tell Them all Those Horrifying Words. I also Tell Them about My Horrible Sister. And I Dont Want Help For My Dad or Sister. Its Just So Stressful and Heartbreaking. And Whenever I Say I will Run away They Tell Me Go Ahead and That I Will Come Back Right away.

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

Hello,

We are glad that you reached out so soon for added support. It sounds very disheartening for what you are going through right now. We wish to renew our support of you everytime you reach out with the hope of you calling us. It is good to hear that you have people to lean on for support. It sounds like you have a clear understanding of your own situation also. We wish to know how we can help with resources but mainly here for you whenever you need to contact us over the phone 24 hours a day at 1800RUNAWAY.

It sounds extremely difficult for you in that you are told to go somewhere and we imagine that must feel painful. Do you have that option? How can we help? Please stay in touch. Good luck.

NRS.

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

I guess I have The Option....I Mean All I can Do Is run Away. And I Cant Go To a Relitives House Because They Hate Me too. Considering What My Parents Have Told Them. Which was All Based Upon Lies.

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

Hello,

It is good to hear that you have options while generating support from others. We wish to continue to lend our support to the situation also. We are here for you 24 hours a day/7 days a week at 1800RUNAWAY. It must be tough for you to think people in your family have turned against you without proper knowledge of the entire truth of the matter. We are confidential, anonymous and fully non-judgmental here. We are always on your side. We hope to hear from you soon than later. Please let us know how we can help. Good luck.

-NRS

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

I just want to Know if Its The Right thing to Do If I run away???

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Re: I Cant get Through The Pain

Hi,

Again, we are sorry about the things that you have been going through and how you are feeling. But we cannot tell you what the best thing to do would be. Only you can make those decisions. If you would like to talk to someone to try and figure out what is best for you we are always here to go over your options as well as listen or give you resources in your area. We are confidential and anonymous and you can call us toll free from anywhere at 1-800-RUNAWAY. Good luck in your decisions and we look forward to hearing from you soon.

NRS