What should I do?

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So today I recently texted my mom and asked her if she thinks I'm a failure and that I think I'm a failure myself. She said, "Why would I think that." So I thought she loved me. But I was wrong. A few hours later, she got mad at me for missing assignments that I couldn't do anymore and took my stuff except for my phone. I was shocked because I told her that I felt like I'm a failure and what she's doing is only adding why I think that. I can't take it anymore, I keep on asking for help for my mental problems but she don't do anything about it and just forgets it entirely (She works in a MENTAL Hospital and she is still young so old age can't be the reason she keeps on forgetting). I'm tired of this, I have a knife in my room if I can't take it anymore, but I could run away to my Grandma house (It pretty far but its only the next city from ours) I could take my Scooter and drive it tomorrow morning (Its electric). What should I do? Am I just overreacting and just deal with it or I could call my grandmother to pick me up if she dont have work tomorrow and if I could convince her to get me away from that sorry excuse of a mother.

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Hello There,
Thank you for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. It sounds like you are going through a difficult time and we want you to know that you are not alone.
You mentioned thinking your mom does not love you because she took your stuff away, this action does not mean she doesn’t love you. It is unfortunate your mother does not support you getting help for your mental health. One option is you could talk to a school counselor and they can help advocate for you on why it is important for you to be getting mental health help.
You mentioned having a knife in your room we want to let you know that your safety is very important to us and your life is important. If you are feeling suicidal or just need someone to talk to please reach out to 988 The Suicide Crisis Lifeline. There is always someone willing to listen and willing to help.
We are not legal experts but if you were to leave without permission it is a possibility that you could be brought back home. You could always talk with your mother and grandmother about staying with your grandma for a few days.
We hope this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any more questions or just need someone to talk to please give us a call or chat with us. We are here for you 24/7.
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