I’m 13 and I might need to run away from home soon

[Guest]

I am suicidal and self harm. My parents know this and my mom is very angry at me because i told my school. She thinks I’m doing this for attention and not considering how hard taking care of me and my siblings on her own is. (I have a dad, he is just overseas rn, and they might be separated, idk) My mental health has been been getting worse and I’ve lost all motivation to go to school. I haven’t gone in 3 days and I’ve missed a couple days of school already because of this but now I don’t think I can go back to school for the foreseeable future. My mom is getting more frustrated with me now because my school has been on her about my absences and mental health. She is threatening me with sending me back to my home country (let me just say it is not a good place to be). She has threatened me with this often but I think she’s getting serious now. She is planning to send me back as soon as next week. And if I go back I’ll be completely stuck.
I have a pretty good plan for my future and I always told myself that I’d just try and get though this part of my life, and move out asap but it’s getting so hard to keep going and I can’t take it anymore. I want to try,really, but if my mom does send me back there is nothing else I can do. I want to run away but I have no idea how I’ll survive.

[ccsmod3]

Hi, thank you for reaching out. It sounds like your mental health has been struggling more recently and you have reached out to your school for help. It is really hard that your mom seems to be getting mad at you when you are struggling rather than trying to help or get you the help that you need. It takes great courage to reach out and tell someone at school, so it is wonderful that you have done so. It could be helpful to ask a counselor at school if them and your mom with you could all sit down and have a conversation about how to best help you and go from there. That way you would have the support of the school and maybe it would help make your mom realize you are not making this up, but instead that you need help. It definitely does not sound like sending you back to your country would be helpful. We are here to support as best as we can, so please reach out if you would like to talk more about this. We are here for you.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

Hi i need help i am just annoyed and i feel my stepdad hates me and i wanna run away but i dont wanna be raped or kidnapped or anything and idk where my friends live and other family doesnt live near us so and my anxiety is worse now And my stepdad threatens to kick me out of the house and said he would hit me in the head if i didnt have epilepsy.... HELP WHAT DO I DO

[ccsmod3]

Hi,Thank you for contacting the National Runaway Safeline. We appreciate you reaching out and sharing what has been going on. We are sorry for how your stepdad is treating you.  It sounds like your stepdad is making you feel like running away. You do not deserve to be treated that way, and we are here for you 24/7.There are a lot of things to consider before running away. We are not legal experts but depending on the state, 18 is the "age of majority," or the age at which state residents are legally considered adults. What this means is you can’t leave home without your guardian’s permission. If you leave home without permission, your parents/legal guardian could report you as a runaway to the police. Running away is not illegal, but it is a status offense. This means police would notify your legal guardian if you are found. It would be up to your guardian if you are able to stay or need to return home.You mentioned that you have anxiety and epilepsy. We want you to know that we are here to support or provide resources. We work best when we can have a conversation with you. We would recommend calling us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or by Live Chat, we are here 24/7. You can look for support within your community too. If you feel comfortable, you can share what is going on with a teacher, local relative or trusted adult.We want you to know that you are not alone. It is great that you are reaching out and we are here to explore your options. We would recommend calling us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or by Live Chat, we are here 24/7.Please call or chat soon at our website www.1800runaway.org.
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[Guest]

Its not just my stepdad i am figuring out my idenity and i told my parents im Bisexual Last year and they said im too young and i have a ton of anxiety but i was gonna do it last night but i take medication for anxiety epilepsy and insomia and i cant afford those and i cant have a seizure bc i cant afford hospital bills.

[ccsmod10]

It sounds like you have been experiencing a lot of stress from a lot of different sources. It sounds like beyond your stepdad being emotionally abusive (and making threats of physical violence, too), you've been dealing with rejection of your sexuality and fear/anxiety surrounding your mental and physical health.

You deserve to feel happy, confident about your health and wellness, free to express yourself authentically and safely, and you deserve to not have to worry about medical bills. When processing so many different stressors, it can be beneficial to focus on one at a time. We are here to listen and help, and can discuss ways to cope and make improvements to how you deal with all of the above.

[Guest]

thanks but i have a bag packed and somewhere to go so im going on a diffrent bus after school tommorow and not looking back but its gonna get worse for my siblings.

[ccsmod10]

We are here to support whatever choice you choose to make; we just want to help you do it as safely as possible. In general, it is beneficial to have an adult you trust that you can contact if you need to in case of an emergency. You can also always contact us for support of any kind.

[Guest]

I know how i am gonna do it but it is just gonna get worse for my siblings and You should have atleast 5,000 dollars but i have 5$

[ccsmod3]

Hi,We are glad you reached out to us. It sounds like you have thought through your decision and that you have a plan and understanding of what you need.We would like to talk with you more about your specific situation, as we may be able to help you contact resources in your area that can help support you. You can reach out to us for a chat through our website or on our crisis hotline at 1(800) RUNAWAY. Both are available 24/7 and are completely confidential.NRS is a non-directive agency. That means we help you come up with your best/safest plan and we get you in touch with the programs/resources in your area to help you. We hope to hear from you soon. Good luck,NRS

[Guest]

it is gonna be worse for my siblings and i dont wanna leave my mom but its ok!

[ccsmod3]

Hi, We are glad you reached out to us. It sounds like you are trying to figure out how best to take care of yourself even though your choices might make it worse for your siblings. We would like to discuss your options and perhaps some options for your siblings knowing more about your specific situation. We may be able to help you contact resources in your area that can help support you. You can reach out to us for a chat through our website or on our crisis hotline at 1(800) RUNAWAY. Both are available 24/7 and are completely confidential. NRS is a non-directive agency. That means we help you come up with your best/safest plan and we get you in touch with the programs/resources in your area to help you. We hope to hear from you soon. Good luck, NRS

[Guest]

Thank you for saying my area i live in pittsburgh PA

[ccsmod3]

Hi there, it sounds like you are interested in some resources in your area. We will do our best to help you find what you are looking for, the best way to get these resources are to chat us online at 1800runaway.org or call our hotline 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS