advice needed!

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So it's a long story, but I can't take this anymore. my parents basically have taken my free will, and school just isn't working. Iv'e been trying my hardest for so long, but it just isn't good enough. Also, a lot of drama has been happening in my school and I don't feel safe anymore. Iv'e considered packing my bags and leaving, but I don't know if i'll have anywhere to go.

Atm, my best options are a. My friend (I'll refer to them as S) and b. my Aunt. However, both of these people have contact with my parents, and if i were to try and hide there, i'd get caught.

Iv'e had suicidal thoughts many many times, and there's a knife on top of the mirror in my bathroom. But I have a girlfriend who I love very much, and I don't want to leave her alone.

I'll post a part 2 in a while, maybe tommorow.

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Hi, thank you for reaching out. It sounds like your parents have taken your freedoms and you are wanting to get away from that. It also sounds like things at school have not been good recently and it even sounds like you are worried for your safety which is not good. For the school part, an option is to talk with an adult you trust. For the other part, it sounds like you are thinking of either going to a friend or your aunt, it could be an option to see if either your aunt or your friend’s parents could talk to your parents to see if that can happen. We care about your safety and do not want you hurting yourself, so it could even be helpful to take that knife out of where you can see it, so that you are not tempted to do anything. We want to help as best as we can, so if you would like to talk more, please either call our hotline 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or chat us online at 1800runaway.org. We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS