LGBT+ runaway

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Hi, I am new to the forums. And I feel I am a bad son, why? well, I feel like I need to run away. Because I feel I am not supported because I am a trans boy, and when my mom Misgenders me I either ignore it or it annoyed me. But annoyed is rare, it chips at my not-alive thoughts. (Also called Suicide) I don't like when she Misgenders me on purpose, but I still like her. She wants to be a good mum and understand, and be near me. Or at least interact with, expect. The "mum I am trans. Yay," part, I used to want to and feel I need to. Leave, and when I attempted to I tried to think of a plan but did not think of a big enough plan, that's when I felt independent. Selfish me, (I don't know if I mean that) my plan, for now, is to just go somewhere called the "Pope Francis Center" It is downtown. Not that far a walk, but that's if I can ask if I can be on a computer for my online school. Yes, things happen sometimes while in school. I just need to pray nothing happens when I cross the streets. And follow my steps, with things like streets plus landmarks. And map directions. Then, when that closes. Go to a library, again downtown. Then go to a park, and sneak in. I am not sure if it has a fence. That's for when it turns dark, and sleep. This park is different. It has trails and trees. And reminds me of a forest, a forest-like park is called. "Carpender Preserve Park." I was going to get a part-time job if someone finally accepts me. I am in a perfect, home. No one is even physically abusing me, be grateful. I am, I am, and nobody is trying to mentally. I also wanted a haircut, I was going to go in 2 years in spring on a Saturday. What child hopes to protect their parent from danger!? Bye-bye, got to go sleep or do work.

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Thank you for contacting the National Runaway Safeline. We are glad that you are reaching out to share your story. It sounds like your mom wants to be a good mom, but it hurts you when she misgenders you. While running away is an option, it’s important to make sure that you are safe and that you can get to resources that you need. If there are adults in your life who are supportive and safe to talk to, it could be good to reach out to them.

Another great place to go when you are struggling or dealing with suicidal thoughts is National Alliance on Mental Illness. You can reach them at nami.org/help, or on the phone at 1-800-950-NAMI.

Our ability to talk over the NRS forums is limited, so please feel free to call our 24/7 confidential hotline at 1-800-RUNAWAY, or chat with us on our website at 1800runaway.org. We can connect you with resources and help you figure out the best and safest options. We hope to hear from you soon.

Stay safe,

NRS Crisis Team