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I'm 15 and I want to run away because my parents make me want to kill myself

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    Hi I'm 15 and I want to run away. I can't deal with my stepmom, dad, and siblings anymore. I feel so suffocated and it makes me want to die. I haven't been able to do anything in months! No hangouts with friends, I'm not allowed to get a job, I don't have a phone, I can't leave the house. I am constantly in my room just doing nothing. I know my issues don't compare to a lot of other children out there but I hope someone will just listen and maybe give some advice. My feelings are always being ignored and whenever I turn my back my family is talking bad about me and their reactions to my "bad" behaviors are insane. Just the other day I was crying in my room and my dad decided he was actually going to check on me for once, he kept asking me all sorts of questions. The major one was "what the hell is wrong with you, there's no reason for you to be upset". I kept telling him I was fine and I didn't know why I was crying. I really did know why I just didn't want to hurt his feelings. After our conversation was over I decided I was going to help out and do some laundry because might as well try to pretend to be alright. When I came back upstairs after getting the laundry I heard my stepmom talking to my dad. She said, why does she always have to be a problem she's causing these problems herself, nobody's doing anything to her so she can suck it up and stop acting like a baby. Then she walked out of the room and saw me standing there and proceeded to tell me that my mom was causing my depression and she's manipulating my emotions and that I've changed and she doesn't even know who I am anymore and my feelings are fake. When the reality is I've stopped trying to have a relationship with someone that only wants to yell at me for hours to make themselves feel better. Also when I said they have insane reactions I mean that they take a lot of my personal belongs for crazy amounts of time and one time when I proceeded to take some of it back they took a whole bunch of my clothes squeezed all of my makeup on it then burned it with a blowtorch and made me watch. Or another time I did something wrong and my dad came in my room ripped my twinkle lights off my wall so hard and fast that it ripped some of the drywall down then he took the tv from my dresser and threw it on the floor and kicked the screen in then made me go bury it in the woods after the trash people wouldn't pick it up. Sorry, this is so long but anyways I'm planning to go stay with a friend for a couple of days.

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    Thank you for contacting National Runaway Safeline. We appreciate you reaching out and sharing what is going on. We are here and want you to know you are not alone. You do not deserve to be treated that way and sounds like a stressful situation. It seems you’re feeling like leaving is one of your only options.

    If you are feeling unsafe at all, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

    There are a lot of things to consider when going to a shelter and and have thought about your basic needs like food, shelter, and clothing. We work best when we can have a conversation with you and we want to make sure you are safe. We would recommend calling us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or by Live Chat, we are here 24/7. Please call or chat soon at our website

    Also, you mentioned in your title that your parents make you want to kill yourself. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a United States-based suicide prevention network of over 160 crisis centers that provides 24/7 service via a toll-free hotline with the number 1-800-273-8255. It is available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress .

    We hope this helps. Please do not hesitate to reach out to us if we can be of any additional help or support.

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