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Hello. I feel uncomfortable with sharing my name, so I'm not going to state my name.
I live in the United States of America in New Jersey.
Backstory: My mom started threatening to hit me either with a belt or a wooden spoon when she was angry at me for asking for the most simple things, like cake. I was just a kid who liked sweets back then so I started thinking I was selfish and ungrateful. She has spanked me with a wooden spoon until I told her that it didn't hurt anymore. I have never been hit by a belt, but I have been threatened since I was 7. I have been depressed since I was 9 or 10, because I told her I got stressed on schoolwork and that people were bullying me and excluding me. She told me that I was just overexaggerating and that I'm probably just being teased, not bullied. She told me once that "If a boy likes me, then he has a crush on me" and brushed off my feelings. I get paranoid a lot and I have a hard time trusting new people. I have to get grades over C. My mom tells me that I overreact and that I'm too sensitive. I have legitimate reasons to be upset, and NOT because of small arguments. I wouldn't even say they are small. I searched up NPD once because I was in how people act if they are narcissistic. My mom related to most signs. I started asking myself if she was toxic. A few days ago, we got into an argument because I asked for a little bit more privacy. I don't search anything bad up. Yet she accused me of hiding something. The most harsh argument we've had was when I went on an inappropriate website that showed videos of actors doing "it" because some bully told me to, me being my naïve self, went on it. She saw me on it, and called me disgusting and that I am dirty, pretty much making me think she was calling me worthless in other words.
This isn't all, this is the most important things about her. My dad calls her a good mom, and only finds when she yells at me and blaming me discipline.
What I'm gonna bring to run away:
Money:
75-300 USD, reason I'm spacing it out as that much is because I'm gonna check all my dollar bills and see how much it comes out at
Sleep:
Pillows, Blankets.
Games:
Laptop, Tablet, Phone, Nintendo Switch
Self defense mechanism:
A medium sized knife
Clothing:
Just some things I like from my winter/spring clothing, and all of my summer clothing. This is a common sense one. You gotta bring clothes.
Random stuff:
Inuyasha volume 1 and 2 (maybe 3 if I get it), manga drawing tutorial books, etc.
I live in the United States of America in New Jersey.
Backstory: My mom started threatening to hit me either with a belt or a wooden spoon when she was angry at me for asking for the most simple things, like cake. I was just a kid who liked sweets back then so I started thinking I was selfish and ungrateful. She has spanked me with a wooden spoon until I told her that it didn't hurt anymore. I have never been hit by a belt, but I have been threatened since I was 7. I have been depressed since I was 9 or 10, because I told her I got stressed on schoolwork and that people were bullying me and excluding me. She told me that I was just overexaggerating and that I'm probably just being teased, not bullied. She told me once that "If a boy likes me, then he has a crush on me" and brushed off my feelings. I get paranoid a lot and I have a hard time trusting new people. I have to get grades over C. My mom tells me that I overreact and that I'm too sensitive. I have legitimate reasons to be upset, and NOT because of small arguments. I wouldn't even say they are small. I searched up NPD once because I was in how people act if they are narcissistic. My mom related to most signs. I started asking myself if she was toxic. A few days ago, we got into an argument because I asked for a little bit more privacy. I don't search anything bad up. Yet she accused me of hiding something. The most harsh argument we've had was when I went on an inappropriate website that showed videos of actors doing "it" because some bully told me to, me being my naïve self, went on it. She saw me on it, and called me disgusting and that I am dirty, pretty much making me think she was calling me worthless in other words.
This isn't all, this is the most important things about her. My dad calls her a good mom, and only finds when she yells at me and blaming me discipline.
What I'm gonna bring to run away:
Money:
75-300 USD, reason I'm spacing it out as that much is because I'm gonna check all my dollar bills and see how much it comes out at
Sleep:
Pillows, Blankets.
Games:
Laptop, Tablet, Phone, Nintendo Switch
Self defense mechanism:
A medium sized knife
Clothing:
Just some things I like from my winter/spring clothing, and all of my summer clothing. This is a common sense one. You gotta bring clothes.
Random stuff:
Inuyasha volume 1 and 2 (maybe 3 if I get it), manga drawing tutorial books, etc.
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