My mom is going to disown me and I'm only 13.

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When I was 1 my parents had a divorce and I remember my mom hitting me when I was 4, since then I can't remember a day when she didn't hit me. I'm literally a punching bag to her and no one's on my side because they don't know the full story. In 2015 my mom attempted to kick me out but my grandparents wouldn't let her, in 2016 throughout 2018 she has kicked me out about 10 times for a good 10-20 minutes because I didn't listen to her. This summer she's been complaining and complained on how she ruined her life for me and how I treat her like garbage when just YESTERDAY after I got in the car after school she told me that she didn't love me anymore. Last year I tried to contact the CPS and my mom got a letter so that put me in further trouble. My mom got a co-worker that's on her side because she doesn't have my side of the story, my mom also strangled me twice yesterday when she CLEARLY knows that I've had a heart in my hole so I can't breath well, and you know why she's doing this? BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO SHOWER YET. My mom doesn't know how to parent and she decides to hide the word abuse with "discipline" okay I guess strangling your child twice is discipline. My dad won't take me so I'm either going to an orphanage or foster care. What do I do? What do I pack? And how do you deal with your mom's bs like this.

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Hello,
Thank you so much for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It takes great courage to reach out and we are so glad that you have decided to reach out to us today. We understand that you are going through a really difficult time, we want you to know that you are not alone. You don't deserve to be hurt and treated that way. You are so strong to have endured this for so long.
What you have described sounds like it can be abuse, and you do have the right to make an abuse report. One option to consider would be to call Child Help at 1800-422-4453, and they would be able to help you with making another report. You can also always talk to an adult or a school counselor and they would be able to help with making a report . You can always call or chat with us and we can help with an abuse report 24/7. While CPS will still have to talk to you and/or your mom directly, confirmation of the report won’t be sent to your house if the report is made by a third party.
When leaving home, it can be beneficial to bring clothes, undergarments, shoes, toiletries, and any prescription medication.
We are available 24/7 and would love to help you more directly through live chat on our website http://www.1800runaway.org/ or by phone at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance. immediately.
Best,
NRS