My parents yell at me, hit me, and shame me. i just want to die.

[Guest]

My parents are constantly yelling at me for stupid reasons. For example, this morning my mom yelled at me for taking too long in the shower. then, while i was getting dressed,she came in with a belt and started hitting me,while calling me nasty names like "ugly pig" and "you fat cow". And to make it worse, my dad just sat there and watched, didn't even say anything. And it doesnt even stop at my parents. My sister (who is 23 years older than me) also started yelling. sometimes,to calm myself down, i hit my forehead. Its a weird way of coping,but its all ive got. once my mom walked in on my hitting my forehead,and she started hitting me with a ruler shoe found on my desk. So its perfectly fine for you to hit be just because i did something, but when i hit myself, its a huge problem. I have nobody to talk to,or to tell my problems to. I dont want to bother my friends,and my family is out of the question. I just want someone to kill me,that would be the best day of my life. ill finally be put out of my misery.
MY family body shames me a lot too. They always call me names like "whale" or "you fat ugly cow" or even say things like "your such a fat ugly **********. how could i have given birth to such an ugly little ********" those were my mom's exact words. Also,they seem to care more about my brother than me. If i start coughing, my parents yell at me to stop. But when my brother starts coughing,they imediatly start rushing towards him asking if hes ok.
Keep in mind that im 14 and hes 24
its just so unfair,how people treat me like poop. and that just makes me scared to want ti talk to anyone. it makes my feel like everyone is going to yell at me because i did something slightly wrong. like push a pull door.
if i ever have kids, i will nevr treat them the way my parents treat me.
ever

[ccsmod15]

Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. It certainly seems like you are currently in a toxic environment, especially at your age. On a positive note, congratulations for realizing that the behavior your parents are showing is not at all appropriate and that you will not mimic their actions when you become a parent. That’s a very mature way to look at things and you should be proud of knowing that.



While self-harming is something that you do to cope with the verbal abuse, it is something that you may want to talk to someone about. The same is true if you are having thoughts of ending your life. Thought you feel that you can’t talk to your friends about what’s going on, it may be something to consider as they may be able to help you figure things out. Also, talking to an adult (a favorite teacher, School Counselor or even an Aunt or Grandparent) might be helpful in that they could offer advise on how to better handle things at home or even help you talk to your parents. With regards to physical abuse, if it continues to happen, you should alert an adult who can hopefully work to get it stopped.



The National Runaway Safeline has a number of things we can look into if you are able to get in touch with us via our chat opportunity (www.1800runaway.org) or via 1-800-Runaway (1-800-786-2929) to speak to someone…we’re available 24/7. In getting to know a bit more about your situation, hopefully we can come up with a plan for you on how to deal with things or we can look into the NRS database of programs that may be suitable to find a health professional for you to speak to. Again, thank you for reaching out to NRS. You have taken a huge step in trying to find a solution to your situation which you should be proud of. Hopefully you will get in touch with us. Good Luck!

[Guest]

well im 15 im not doing bad in school im getting As and Bs but i am kinda lazy so i tend to do stuff latter in the day but i still get it done but my parents just scream thier ********ing heads off about how out of all my borthers and sisiters im a ********ing failure and i will have no place in life if im beaing honest i dont want to deal with this bull ******** any more i do my chores and i do my school i just usaly do my school latter in the day yes i am homeschooled i dont know what to do

[ccsmod3]

Hi, thank you for reaching out. It sounds like your parents are saying some very negative things to you and you never deserve to be spoken to this way. You mentioned you have been getting As and Bs which are good grades, but even so they should never be saying you are a failure or anything like that, because it is not true. It sounds like they always are expecting more of you and you are already doing your best and that is all you can do. Because of your parents treatment it sounds like you are getting sick of it and not wanting to deal with it anymore. We are here to listen if you would like to discuss this further and options to help or ways to cope. If this interests you, please call our hotline 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or chat us online at 1800runaway.org. We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

well im 15 im not doing bad in school im getting As and Bs but i am kinda lazy so i tend to do stuff latter in the day but i still get it done but my parents just scream thier ********ing heads off about how out of all my borthers and sisiters im a ********ing failure and i will have no place in life if im beaing honest i dont want to deal with this bull ******** any more i do my chores and i do my school i just usaly do my school latter in the day yes i am homeschooled i dont know what to do

yeah i also know that feeling and im sorry to hear it but if youre still here and if you see this msg (or anyone else who sees this msg) we can talk about it or something