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I feel so hurt and no matter how hard i try i just can never be happy.

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  • I feel so hurt and no matter how hard i try i just can never be happy.

    It all started when i was 5 i lost my father figure and it shifted my whole world around and my mom doesn't care, iv'e tried to kill myself multiple times and no matter how hard i try it never works, i've been in 3 psych wards and it didn't work, i've haven't been getting bullied or anything like that but i'm so good at hiding my pain no one ever notices and it's so hard to keep it all inside. I can't talk to my mom because every time i do she just screams at me and says shes going to change but never does and my stepdad doesn't understand anything like at all. I lost all my friends when i had to moves states and found out that my friends didn't even really wanna be my friends because i " stink " and am " poor " when i'm not one of those things. Every thing has been getting so hard. Like today my mom came in my room and put a knife through my tv and started screaming because i kicked her because we were playing. It's like everything i do it's always wrong and i'm never right.

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    Thank you for reaching out; we are glad that you did. It sounds like you have gone through so very much, beginning with losing your father figure at 15, and the way things are with your mom, and moving so much that it's hard to make friends.
    You must be in incredible pain to have tried to kill yourself. It sounds like when you were in the psych wards, it may have been hard for you to talk about your feelings, and now you still keep it all bottled in - which makes the pain even worse.
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