I don't feel loved.

[Guest]

I don't like being at home. I really just want to be somewhere else. My mom always compares me to other people and fat shames me. She thinks I have a mental disability but she won't go to a doctor about it. She blames me for everything bad that has happened over the past 4 years. I'm currently 12 and she wants to kick me out. I've never told anyone about this because my mom says that kids get raped and abused if they get taken by CPS. She tells me she doesn't care and that she wishes I was never born. She hits me with an extension cord and beats me. I lied to my school nurse about the scratches on my arm because I didn't want to get my mom in trouble. I'm scared and I just want love. Is that too much to ask for? Why was she of all people my mom?

[ccsmod15]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

It sounds like your mother has been abusing you for years and is trying to are you feel like you are crazy. You’re not. If you don’t feel comfortable talking to CPS, please talk to your school counselor or another trusted adult. You deserve to be loved. Please talk to someone who can help you get out of there. I understand that you don’t want to get your mom in trouble, but telling someone will make sure that she stops treating you like this. Your mother might need professional help, and you can give her that if you talk to someone.