No announcement yet.

is my situation toxic, and is it best for me to run away?

  • Filter
  • Time
  • Show
Clear All
new posts

  • is my situation toxic, and is it best for me to run away?

    hi! i have to be anonymous for my saftey but just some basic information i am 16 and in texas. i also identify as bisexual. in order to answer my question, i need to give u my story

    i live in a very toxic environment. my mom is from _____ and my dad is from_____, so we can already see some cultural problems/differences there. for as long as i could remember, i was always different from my family and still to this day they seem like they have a grudge on me. my dad had to move to another country for work reasons, so for most of my life he wasnt really there (which will affect what happens later in the story). during middle school especially when i was 13-14 years old, i was bullied a lot. i had to go through all of it alone without anyone to help or even ask if i was ok and although i was a pretty weird kid, what people said still hurt me and im still trying to process, understand, and get through it. i eventually moved, and even though there is still some bullying, i feel like im in a much better place now than i was before. i also finally have real friends at school too! of course because of bullying i have developed depression and anxiety. whenever i try to get help (i.g. therapy, counseling, etc.) my parents like to step in and say that i am just trying to play a victim or im just trying to get people's attention and pity when im really crying out for help. they also get mad at me for being depressed and that i have no right to be upset at all. i am forced to fake a smile every day. my parents compare me to my sibling a lot, and they want me to change so that it fits their criteria of the "perfect child," but i dont want to change to make other people satisfied since i have done that before many times, and it doesnt make you feel good. everything i do, wear, say, etc. is so disgusting to them, even though if you'd see me i am perfectly normal. all of this still continues to this day.

    anyways i dont want to keep my story too long (if you want more details ab my life for a better understanding, ask and i'll anwer!), but i feel like running away is the best option. this has been going on for too long, and i am already so weak from it. ik it is difficult because i am in texas, and ik what type of people live here, my parents and sibling watch my every move, and it will be hard to leave the new friends i've made over the last 2 years, since friendships r something i value so much since i dont get to have that a lot. of course im not going to run away like now, but if things escalate to a bad point, i guess it my only option i have now. i want to be able to live the life ive always dreamed of, to be happy with where i am physically and emotionally, to feel comfortable with being myself, and to love and respect myself no matter what. my family always puts me down for how i dont win any medals, trophies, or awards but just as long as i am happy, i'd feel like i've won everything in the world.

    thank you in advance to everyone for answering my question! ill keep putting updates on here whenever i can! ill try my best and stay strong for the time being!
    Last edited by ccsmod16; 07-17-2021, 07:51 PM.

  • #2
    Hi, thank you for reaching out; we are glad that you did. It sounds like things have been really hard for you for a long time, between the bullying at middle school, to the way your parents treat you and don't listen to you when you are asking for help. You have been so strong already to survive this alone, and it takes a lot of courage to reach out to us and to talk about things that hurt. You don't deserve to have been treated this way by anyone.

    As you can see by the edit we made to your post, we take your anonymity seriously and wouldn't let anything identifying go out on this public forum.
    We really do want to help you figure this out, and the only way to do that, truly is if you chat us through this website or call our hotline. A series of forum posts means that no one person here will have your whole story (as a 24 hour agency, it's not possible for one person to be the only one to respond) and you deserve to have us listen and help with your whole story.
    We can't tell you whether running away is your best option, but we would talk it all over with you and help you discover what your options are. You can chat us through this website, or call our hotline at 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929), both are 24/7.

    We can also offer two referrals that might help in the meantime. is and excellent mental health site for LGBTQ youth. They are there for you to get support for your feelings and situation. They don't know about running away, but they are there to support you and help you cope with what you are going through. Secondly, It Gets Better is a place of hope. They have thousands of videos from, adults now, who were youth that would recognize your struggles as a Bi youth in Texas, and perhaps LGBTQ folk who had cultural differences to navigate.
    We truly hope that you will chat us or call us. We work best when we can have a conversation; to listen and help you discover the options that work best for you.
    We truly hope to hear from you soon,
    Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

    National Runaway Safeline
    [email protected] (Crisis Email)
    1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)
    Tell us what you think about your experience!


    Previously entered content was automatically saved. Restore or Discard.
    Insert: Thumbnail Small Medium Large Fullsize Remove  
    or Allowed Filetypes: jpg, jpeg, png, gif, webp