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hi! i have to be anonymous for my saftey but just some basic information i am 16 and in texas. i also identify as bisexual. in order to answer my question, i need to give u my story
i live in a very toxic environment. my mom is from _____ and my dad is from_____, so we can already see some cultural problems/differences there. for as long as i could remember, i was always different from my family and still to this day they seem like they have a grudge on me. my dad had to move to another country for work reasons, so for most of my life he wasnt really there (which will affect what happens later in the story). during middle school especially when i was 13-14 years old, i was bullied a lot. i had to go through all of it alone without anyone to help or even ask if i was ok and although i was a pretty weird kid, what people said still hurt me and im still trying to process, understand, and get through it. i eventually moved, and even though there is still some bullying, i feel like im in a much better place now than i was before. i also finally have real friends at school too! of course because of bullying i have developed depression and anxiety. whenever i try to get help (i.g. therapy, counseling, etc.) my parents like to step in and say that i am just trying to play a victim or im just trying to get people's attention and pity when im really crying out for help. they also get mad at me for being depressed and that i have no right to be upset at all. i am forced to fake a smile every day. my parents compare me to my sibling a lot, and they want me to change so that it fits their criteria of the "perfect child," but i dont want to change to make other people satisfied since i have done that before many times, and it doesnt make you feel good. everything i do, wear, say, etc. is so disgusting to them, even though if you'd see me i am perfectly normal. all of this still continues to this day.
anyways i dont want to keep my story too long (if you want more details ab my life for a better understanding, ask and i'll anwer!), but i feel like running away is the best option. this has been going on for too long, and i am already so weak from it. ik it is difficult because i am in texas, and ik what type of people live here, my parents and sibling watch my every move, and it will be hard to leave the new friends i've made over the last 2 years, since friendships r something i value so much since i dont get to have that a lot. of course im not going to run away like now, but if things escalate to a bad point, i guess it my only option i have now. i want to be able to live the life ive always dreamed of, to be happy with where i am physically and emotionally, to feel comfortable with being myself, and to love and respect myself no matter what. my family always puts me down for how i dont win any medals, trophies, or awards but just as long as i am happy, i'd feel like i've won everything in the world.
thank you in advance to everyone for answering my question! ill keep putting updates on here whenever i can! ill try my best and stay strong for the time being
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i live in a very toxic environment. my mom is from _____ and my dad is from_____, so we can already see some cultural problems/differences there. for as long as i could remember, i was always different from my family and still to this day they seem like they have a grudge on me. my dad had to move to another country for work reasons, so for most of my life he wasnt really there (which will affect what happens later in the story). during middle school especially when i was 13-14 years old, i was bullied a lot. i had to go through all of it alone without anyone to help or even ask if i was ok and although i was a pretty weird kid, what people said still hurt me and im still trying to process, understand, and get through it. i eventually moved, and even though there is still some bullying, i feel like im in a much better place now than i was before. i also finally have real friends at school too! of course because of bullying i have developed depression and anxiety. whenever i try to get help (i.g. therapy, counseling, etc.) my parents like to step in and say that i am just trying to play a victim or im just trying to get people's attention and pity when im really crying out for help. they also get mad at me for being depressed and that i have no right to be upset at all. i am forced to fake a smile every day. my parents compare me to my sibling a lot, and they want me to change so that it fits their criteria of the "perfect child," but i dont want to change to make other people satisfied since i have done that before many times, and it doesnt make you feel good. everything i do, wear, say, etc. is so disgusting to them, even though if you'd see me i am perfectly normal. all of this still continues to this day.
anyways i dont want to keep my story too long (if you want more details ab my life for a better understanding, ask and i'll anwer!), but i feel like running away is the best option. this has been going on for too long, and i am already so weak from it. ik it is difficult because i am in texas, and ik what type of people live here, my parents and sibling watch my every move, and it will be hard to leave the new friends i've made over the last 2 years, since friendships r something i value so much since i dont get to have that a lot. of course im not going to run away like now, but if things escalate to a bad point, i guess it my only option i have now. i want to be able to live the life ive always dreamed of, to be happy with where i am physically and emotionally, to feel comfortable with being myself, and to love and respect myself no matter what. my family always puts me down for how i dont win any medals, trophies, or awards but just as long as i am happy, i'd feel like i've won everything in the world.
thank you in advance to everyone for answering my question! ill keep putting updates on here whenever i can! ill try my best and stay strong for the time being
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