perhaps my title is too cliche or basic but it is what it is.
i dislike my family, no matter the time they spent with me or the things theyve done for me. they have completely destroyed my self confidence and mental health, and then they pretend that they didnt. im struggling to finish and send in school work because i lack motivation and cant bring myself to finish any of it. its not just school work either, its just any work in general and the consequence to this was getting screamed at, threatened, having my phone broken, getting hit and having my friends taken away (i could only contact them through my phone). maybe its my fault for not finishing any of my school work, but how am i supposed to do so when i can barely get up in the morning? how will i finish work when i spend half of my day crying over how im not good enough and how much i wanna die? how will i do something i dont want to do when i cant even bring myself to do the things i WANT to do?
after they found out about my poor grades, my sister went through my messages with my friends and found out i was lgbtq, which resulted in her outing me. she outed me to my homophobic and transphobic parents. apparently, telling me to kill myself, sl*t my wrists, and saying i was a waste of space wasnt enough for her. she just had to out me too. everyday she calls me slurs and tells me im so fat, ugly, and stupid. my parents dont do anything about it and sometimes they even encourage it by slapping me when theyre mad at me too. they even tried to put me in religious classes, which i refused to go to, resulting in me getting screamed at for an hour. they act like they didnt do anything the next day, it happens all the time, but i always remember what they did. maybe they shouldve thrown me out like they threatened to.
my online friends were the only thing that made me wanna live. without them, i am useless
not edited my apologies for any grammar mistakes
i dislike my family, no matter the time they spent with me or the things theyve done for me. they have completely destroyed my self confidence and mental health, and then they pretend that they didnt. im struggling to finish and send in school work because i lack motivation and cant bring myself to finish any of it. its not just school work either, its just any work in general and the consequence to this was getting screamed at, threatened, having my phone broken, getting hit and having my friends taken away (i could only contact them through my phone). maybe its my fault for not finishing any of my school work, but how am i supposed to do so when i can barely get up in the morning? how will i finish work when i spend half of my day crying over how im not good enough and how much i wanna die? how will i do something i dont want to do when i cant even bring myself to do the things i WANT to do?
after they found out about my poor grades, my sister went through my messages with my friends and found out i was lgbtq, which resulted in her outing me. she outed me to my homophobic and transphobic parents. apparently, telling me to kill myself, sl*t my wrists, and saying i was a waste of space wasnt enough for her. she just had to out me too. everyday she calls me slurs and tells me im so fat, ugly, and stupid. my parents dont do anything about it and sometimes they even encourage it by slapping me when theyre mad at me too. they even tried to put me in religious classes, which i refused to go to, resulting in me getting screamed at for an hour. they act like they didnt do anything the next day, it happens all the time, but i always remember what they did. maybe they shouldve thrown me out like they threatened to.
my online friends were the only thing that made me wanna live. without them, i am useless
not edited my apologies for any grammar mistakes
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