i hate my mom and its her fault

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every single day she makes me want to die to pull my own hair and eyes out and just cry. every single day she gives me nothing but pain she compares me to my brother and how people love him and they'll never love me unless i turn into the perfect child, she never put in the effort to actually have a relationship with me and just expected it to just be there and she thinks this imaginary bond gives her the right to strip me of myself and make me wear whatever she wants because she knows best. ill never be enough for her. every single day i see her treating my brother better than she has ever treated me. i s/h because that takes it away the emotional pain. i just want to leave. it hurts seeing everyone's parents treat them well, no matter how overbearing they are i wish i had them. i use my phone to take me away from her take away even interacting with her but now she put a screen time of 2 hours on it and is threatening to take it away because im on it too much. she takes away every shred of happiness in my life. i cant wait to leave for university even though its 4 years and 7 months away i just want to leave .