Tired and done

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3 years back I was mentally and physically abused by my dad my mom also dealt with it so left I thought it was finally over and it was good for awhile my mom got a new boyfriend I didn't trust him and he got on meth and stole our car she called the cops but after 1/2 a year she got back with him and it was alright he soon got addicted to alcohol and still he was drunk all the time and stumbling but it still was okay then we moved and this is when it got bad he got fired from his job and my mom started lying to me so I didn't trust her and unknowingly distanceed myself then one day he yelled at me like my dad did threatened to shoot and kill my dog mom talked to him when he was sober but a month later he yelled at me when I told his kid to give me 5 min and I'll make her something after I switched my laundry he scream at me how I was messed up when it was his kid and he was the one passed out drunk on the couch them we moved again I was completely emotionally disconnected from both of them my mom talked ******** about every one I was tried and so I told my grandma hoping to get a way out she made it worse and I just said I lied because it was easier so she treated me like an outcast wich I wasn't upset about they always talked to me about how I need to be the perfect women for a man then this is when I was truly done her boyfriend got drunk and was driving on dirt roads and we where having an okay time I decided to drop everything we had just found out my grandma had cancer and my 25 year old brother said "I'm scared if gaga dies this family will fall apart" and the whole atmosphere changed and it was like a switch flipped he started yelling at us and remembering what my dad was like I tried to defuse the situation and change the subject but then he started saying this about how we don't do anything how me and my brother are useless me and my brother weren't saying anything at one point and were just looking out the window tell him to just take us home them when my brother wouldn't respond to him he went after me and my brother told him to ******** off and stop being stupid so he grabbed my brother pulled him over the center console and told him he was gonna hit him so hard that his eardrum would be blown out I was punching his arm just to get him to let go when he did he kept trying to get my brother to fight him he's 47 by the way and an ex con and drug addict he brags about killing people all the time he was driving fast hiting rocks and he kept spinning himself up it was like rolling a snowball down a hill then when I knew where we were it was dark but I told him to let me out and he wouldn't then I said I would jump out if he didn't let me out and he spend up to car doors were locked and he said that I was going to go inside the house and he was going to beat up my brother then I was pissed and called him all kinds of things we got home and I went to my grandmas with my brother we told her everything the next morning we called my mom she took her boyfriends side called me and my brother liers said it was all mine and my brothers fault and then she said things about me ill never forget then it was 2 days after I had been at my grandmas the whole time then she came when my grandma wasn't home and dragged me out my the house by my neck when I told her no and she told me we are fixing the family then she made me have a "talk" with her and Josh when I said I wouldn't forgive him he freaked out and said all the things about me and my brother sober this time then my mom said I was spoiled and I didn't do anything and im not abused (never said I was" and that she was overworked i can go into detail all day button sum it up now I hate her and her boyfriend she says things about me all the time when I can hear her she comments on a weight when I struggle with eating disorders im done but I sont think this is considered abuse because they haven't hit me I need help what do I do am I even justified to want to leave

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Hi there,

We are very thankful you decided to reach out to us and share a bit of what’s been going on at home. We want you to know that although your mom or her boyfriend have not hit you, it is still considered abuse/neglect due to allowing you to be exposed to situations that a substantially risky.
We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. Again, you do not deserve to be treated or spoken to this way, we want to be here to support you.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS