I want to kill my mom

[Guest]

I honestly want to at this point. I know I sound crazy, I know I sound deranged, but honestly I don't give a **** anymore. I've been suffering thanks to her for the longest time. I'm forced to bottle up every feeling I have because nobody seems to understand or care. I mean, she definitely doesn't. Whenever I try, she just twists it to make it about her. She never listens to me and uses the "You're a kid" excuse to justify EVERYTHING. I can never talk to this woman about ****. It doesn't matter that "I'm a kid", could you please listen to a single word I say?? We get into a bad argument at least once a month, and every time after she goes on like nothing happened. Why? Why do you never say sorry? Why does everyone say I must apologize even though you start fights over the dumbest things? Why should I apologize if you're the one who provoked me into "acting fresh"? And then she says I provoked her! HOW?? I'M JUST SITTING IN MY ROOM AND THEN YOU COME IN WITHOUT KNOCKING OR DOING ANYTHING TO ANNOUNCE YOUR PRESENCE JUST TO START ****. One time we actually got into a real fist fight. Why you may ask? Because I told her to leave me alone. That's it. She throws me on the floor, chokes me, scares me until I nearly pass out, just because I told her to leave me alone. And then she wonders why I'm so cautious around her. Then when I scratched her in the face TO DEFEND MYSELF mind you, she **********es and moans to her Facebook friends about it. I'm sick of the arguments, I'm sick of fearing her, I'm sick of having to fight over every little thing. There's no escape. I feel that I'll never feel happy again as long as she's in my life. I hate her, and I hope she dies soon. I won't feel sorry for her and I won't regret a thing if I am the one to end her miserable existence.

[ccsmod13]

Thank you for contacting NRS. It sounds like you are in a very difficult situation. We’re glad you reached out to us. It sounds like you have been feeling frustrated and overwhelmed at home because you are not feeling heard. It is understandable to have intrusive and maybe even scary thoughts when the people around you are not listening to how you feel and are hurting you.

No one deserves to be treated that way. It is your Mom’s responsibility to provide a safe and supportive environment for you. If you feel you are in danger, you can always call 911.

A potential resource is the Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline at www.childhelp.org or 1-800-4-A-CHILD (422-4453). Child Help is an organization that helps youth and children who might be in dangerous or unsafe situations at home. You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and we want to make sure you are getting the support that you deserve. Child Help has a 24-hour hotline with volunteers who can talk to you about your situation and provide resources that may be helpful to you.

We encourage you to reach out to someone in your life about how you are feeling. Perhaps a friend, family member, counselor, or other trusted adult. Sometimes just having a safe space to talk about your situation can help you think of options and ways to find help that you had not thought of previously. If you think it would be helpful to you, you can also call us and we can arrange a conference call with your Mom to talk about how you feel.

A potential resource is NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness, at www.nami.org or 1-800-950-NAMI (6264). The NAMI HelpLine is a free, nationwide service providing information, resource referrals and support to anyone in crisis. Crisis Text Line staff and volunteers may able to provide guidance and offer resources that may be helpful to you or strategies for dealing with your Mom. Text "connect" to 741741 to speak with a counselor.

If you feel you need space you could consider contacting National Safe Place at www.nationalsafeplace.org or text your location and SAFE to 44357. They will text you the nearest safe place where you can go until you decide what you want to do.

You can also always call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). We have volunteers available 24/7 to talk and to help you find resources that may be helpful to you.

[Guest]

my mom is destroying my mental health. she is too strict, i hate being at home and i hate being around her. i can give more details if you respond and try to help me. i am not in danger, but i am so, so unhappy.

[Guest]

I am just 9 but my mom ALMOST kicked me out (I mean is it ilegal to kick a 9year old out)

[ccsmod16]

Hi –

Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We know it takes courage to reach out and appreciate you sharing a bit about what’s going on. Please know that we’re here to support you through this challenging time.

While we are not legal experts, as a general rule it is illegal for a parent or guardian to kick out anyone under 18 years old who’s in their care. Please know that you should not have to experience this sort of threat, ever. That said, if you ever feel unsafe or in danger at home, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

If there is an adult that you trust that you could talk to about what's going on at home, that could be helpful. If you are attending school, a teacher or counselor might be able to help. Or, you might want to reach out to a relative or a friend's parent and let them know what's going on.

If you ever need a safe place to go, you may wish to visit The National Safeplace website (www.nationalsafeplace.org). This organization provides access to immediate help and resources for youth in need. You can also use their free, confidential TXT 4 HELP free service:

• Text the word “safe” and your current location (address, city, state) to 4HELP (44357).
• Within seconds, you’ll receive a message with the closest Safe Place site and phone number for the local youth agency.
• For immediate help, reply with “2chat” to text interactively with a trained counselor.

We at NRS are also available 24/7 to talk more and explore how we can help. You can reach us either by phone at is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or via chat at www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

We hope to hear from you soon.

Be safe,

NRS

[Guest]

Hi
my mom pisses me off
She keeps calling me autistic
It makes me want
To kill her
Please let me know the righter thing to do because I have
No help

[ccsmod1]

Hello,

Thanks for reaching out to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We are sorry to hear that your mom is saying things to you that have evidently upset you deeply. Please know that since you asked us what the right thing to do is, the best thing we can say is the right thing to do is to seek help for the emotions you are experiencing because having homicidal thoughts are a very serious thing that require immediate attention.

We encourage you to dial 911 immediately if you find that your mom is in any danger because of you or if you may feel in any danger to yourself. If you feel more comfortable dialing 988 instead, they are the contact information for the National Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, which specializes in mental health support and resources. They may also be reached through online chat, found on their website at www.988lifeline.org

At this time, it may be best to speak with any supports you have, such as school counselors or teachers, family members or any adults you trust, etc; as you may need serious mental health attention at this time. Finding ways to cope with your emotions and to channel your energy into a healthy, non-homicidal manner will be most beneficial for your well-being and the safety of others.

Lastly, you are always welcome to reach out to our line at 1-800-RUNAWAY or by our online chat, found on our website at www.1800runaway.org. We may also do our best to provide you with support and any additional resources that may be helpful for you at this time.

Sincerely,
NRS

[Guest]

I felt that

[Guest]

I want to kill my parents and sisters, they call me fat and lazy, they bully me, my parents mentally abused me without knowing it, I used to be physically abused by my biological father. Everything I do I mess up, my mom says "why are u like this" "why are you such a B****" "how did I go wrong raising you" "I must have been a bad mom for you to turn out this way" They are rude, narcissistic, manipulative, hateful, narcissistic. I have thoughts and dreams of killing them when they make me mad or hurt me, in many different ways. I know it's not right but when I get beat for doing what I think is right they make me mad, I do nothing wrong and yet I'm the bad guy.

[ccsmod3]

Hi thank you for reaching out. It sounds like you are being mistreated in some pretty horrible ways by your family and it is understandable to be angry. You absolutely do not deserve to be treated this way. That sounds really scary to be having dreams of killing them when they hurt you. It’s understandable to have a reaction when they do these things, but we can help find some other alternatives than you hurting yourself or others. We are here 24/7 to help and support as best as we can if you would like to talk more about this or some options to help. If this interests you, please either call our hotline 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or chat us online at 1800runaway.org. If you feel you are in immediate danger or hurting yourself or someone else, we recommend calling 911. We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

My mom is so annoying she does the same and blabbers to the entire family about us and nit picks every single ********ing thing i do and when she’s wrong she just stares at us like where the problem she needs ********ing help i want to kill her do bad

[ccsmod14]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in a bad way if things don’t change. Your and your family's safety and well-being is important. It also sounds like you are thinking about harming others. It takes a lot of strength to reach out for help, and we are so glad that you did. Your mother's life has worth and our top priority is safety. We are here to listen and support you in any way that we can, and we can help you find resources that can help you cope with these feelings. You do not have to face this alone, and there is so much help out there for you. If you are thinking about hurting anyone, you can also call us 24/7 at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) if you need to talk.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
We hope to hear from you soon.