17 in a few days

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i turn 17 in a few days and i just got into really big trouble and my dad is freaking out about it. we have a very rough history and my brother has been more of a father to me than he has but my brother amd sister have moved out and i have run away multiple time but always end ip back here. i suffer from sever deppression and have a mental illness that is yet to be determined for another two weeks and being here makes me suicidal and i could go into detail but its personal and i have been ready to live on my own since i was 15 and i have a few options of where i could go till im 18 and a car and a plan to pay rent and all that, money isnt a problem i just dont know what the best option is. i hare being here and my entire life it had been seriois detriment to my mental health im just scared that my dad will find me and make me come back again and if so i know that it will be worse this time given the circumstances. also my brother came out as bisexual and my mom almost threw up and my dad said it was disturbing and disgusting. things escalated amd its the reason he moved out about a month ago. and i also am bi and am scared of how they will treat me if o tell them and i just want to get out of here but idk of its the right thing.

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Hey there. Thanks for reaching out to us here at NRS. We know that it can take a lot of courage to reach out for support, and we're glad you took that step. We're sorry to hear that things at home have been tough for you. It definitely sounds like there's a lot going on and your concerns are understandable. Regardless, leaving home is a pretty big step and one where you might not ever fully feel is the right thing to do. That said, having a plan in place for your next steps is a good idea. It looks like you've spent some time thinking about what leaving home will look like for you and you have an idea of how you'd survive, which is great. As you continue to think through that plan, establishing a backup plan might be helpful as well. Consider if you miscalculated and find that you don't have the financial means to support yourself once you leave--what's next? If you're heavily relying on your car, think about what might happen if it breaks down or your parents take it back. If you have housing arranged that involves you staying with someone else, consider what happens if the law gets involved and they're at risk of legal repercussions for allowing you to stay with them.

In terms of your mental health, it's great that you've been assessed and are aware of how things are affecting you in that regard. Once you have a formal diagnosis and a treatment plan in place, you might find that working through some of these issues becomes a little bit more manageable. For example, meeting with a therapist who you can talk to about what's going on at home and how it's affecting your mental health and depression might give you the opportunity to utilize the tools that the therapist has in any future negative interactions with your parents. While you continue to await your diagnosis, if you find that you're having a tough time, are feeling really depressed or having suicidal thoughts, please know that we are here for you. You can reach out to us directly by calling 1-800-RUNAWAY or by chatting with us at www.1800runaway.org. In addition to reaching out to us, you can also contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline by calling 1-800-273-8255 or by chatting with them at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org.

If you'd like to chat in more detail about what's going on or talk over your options, please don't hesitate to reach out.

Take care.

NRS

[Guest]

and if i do run away, would it be better to not contact my parents at all or let my mom know im safe or should i talk with them about it at all?

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Hi there!
That is completely up to you. You ultimately decide how you want to go about this. We are here to support where we can. We unfortunately can only respond to forums twice, so from here if you would like to contact us further is would need to be by phone or via our live chat. You can call us at 800-RUNAWAY or visit our chat at www.1800runaway.org.
Stay safe!
NRS