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I'm 12 and going through many family issues. I've been struggling in school due to problems including Anxiety and Depression, which is just made worst when my mother or siblings yell at me for it.
I'm not connected with my father and never have been as we rarely talk and never do things together despite me living with both parents. Recently the problem became worst when my sister called CPS (Child protective services) on my father, stating that he has molested me (Which is not in the slightest true and not the first time she's called CPS on my family in hopes to get me and my slightly older brother taken).
Speaking of my sister, we fight constantly and it has gotten to points where she's threatened to harm me, I don't feel safe around her because of this. She has a couple months old baby who she often leaves with me to babysit, which ends up with me getting frustrated that the child won't stop screaming.
My self esteem and confidence is low due to both my Anxiety and because my siblings commonly make fun of me, which doesn't seem like it harms me at the time, but it is incredibly impactful.
I've thought about running away before, although didn't act on it, which I personally regret not acting upon. My family has been going on like this for years, as long as I can remember, and it's just gotten too difficult to handle. I'm at the point where I can't cope anymore, and I just want to die or harm myself, I have harmed myself.
I have thought about talking to my school counselor, but I'm afraid to, I think she'll tell my mother, who has already expressed that she doesn't believe in child Depression.
I previously dealt with Emotional Detachment which has now faded and made me feel worst then ever.
I don't have any friends since I'm too socially awkward to make some, so the option of asking a friend to stay at their house is completely off the table, even if I was okay with asking them if I could stay at theirs.
I doubt this is even all of it. I've dealt with so much in the past years that it would be impossible to even list it all in enough detail.
Should I run away? I'm ready to do so, but I need to know if this would be the right decision. If it is, what are some tips for doing this and being able to keep it going for as long as I need to unwind? (Chances are, no, I won't leave permanently, I'll just stay out until I feel good enough to come back. If someone yells at me for running out, I'll happily warn them that I'll do it again too)
I'm not connected with my father and never have been as we rarely talk and never do things together despite me living with both parents. Recently the problem became worst when my sister called CPS (Child protective services) on my father, stating that he has molested me (Which is not in the slightest true and not the first time she's called CPS on my family in hopes to get me and my slightly older brother taken).
Speaking of my sister, we fight constantly and it has gotten to points where she's threatened to harm me, I don't feel safe around her because of this. She has a couple months old baby who she often leaves with me to babysit, which ends up with me getting frustrated that the child won't stop screaming.
My self esteem and confidence is low due to both my Anxiety and because my siblings commonly make fun of me, which doesn't seem like it harms me at the time, but it is incredibly impactful.
I've thought about running away before, although didn't act on it, which I personally regret not acting upon. My family has been going on like this for years, as long as I can remember, and it's just gotten too difficult to handle. I'm at the point where I can't cope anymore, and I just want to die or harm myself, I have harmed myself.
I have thought about talking to my school counselor, but I'm afraid to, I think she'll tell my mother, who has already expressed that she doesn't believe in child Depression.
I previously dealt with Emotional Detachment which has now faded and made me feel worst then ever.
I don't have any friends since I'm too socially awkward to make some, so the option of asking a friend to stay at their house is completely off the table, even if I was okay with asking them if I could stay at theirs.
I doubt this is even all of it. I've dealt with so much in the past years that it would be impossible to even list it all in enough detail.
Should I run away? I'm ready to do so, but I need to know if this would be the right decision. If it is, what are some tips for doing this and being able to keep it going for as long as I need to unwind? (Chances are, no, I won't leave permanently, I'll just stay out until I feel good enough to come back. If someone yells at me for running out, I'll happily warn them that I'll do it again too)
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