i left home because i was suicidal and my eating disorder was getting worse

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after my 16th birthday i couldn’t take it anymore the constant feeling of i’m wrong and i was a waste. i’ve had an eating disorder for years now, bulimia and suicidal thoughts, my mom only put me on med that made me worse and then when i told her that she ignored me when i said i was getting worse and the thoughts were unbearable. i found one thing that truest made me happy and my parents would take it away and then let me have it and repeat the process and was in control of me and my life. i couldn’t take it anymore and i moved out, along with that i got told i was a coward, a phycho, bi polar, weak, a piece of ******** and more hurtful words. my parents do not support me financially and i’ve been staying with my boyfriend witch they never let me see or have alone time with when i needed it. as soon as i moved my eating disorder went away and so did the thoughts. i used to be 180 pounds and now i am 137 pounds when i was last living with my parents i was 120 pounds with pale skin looked like i was sick but i was not. now that i am trying to be happy my parents won’t support me, won’t help me get a job, won’t help me even get social assistance so i can at least have food to eat. as a kid because i still am, this is traumatizing and to realize the health changes is crazy and it hurts to know that my parents might have cared but just didn’t care enough to see the signs before it was too late. all i ever wanted was my parents to come along side me and love me no matter what but i guess not everyone can try to be happy and have it all.

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