I want to start by saying I love my family and I suppose, in a way they love me too. But our household is living hell everyday I'm there. I swap houses between my mom and grandparents and both places just aren't the best. I'll start with my mom. My mother recently had another son and all of a sudden, I get to stay with her again while she goes out clubbing while I'm stuck babysitting. It's not too bad but it's repetitive and we rarely spend one on one time together. My mother gets angry easily and quarantine hasn't made that easier. She constantly yells at me, tells me my opinion doesn't matter, and calls me the r-word. I'm sure you can guess which word. However, a few moments later, her anger is mostly gone and she acts like she didn't reign terror on me. And its not just me, my one-year-old brother also has to deal with her wrath anytime something bad happens. He definitely doesn't deserve it.
My grandparents are a worse case. I lived with them majority of my life and still live with them part-time and recently we just can't get along. It leads to them hitting me, choking me, and breaking my things. I've stopped crying about like I did when I was younger but it still hurts. My grandpa hates me and constantly talks about throwing me out while my grandma might love me, she does most of the hitting. They try and justify it but I don't really know if there's anything to justify. I feel like I have no one to talk to since I have no other family members and I'd never trust my friends with this.
I live currently in Florida and I just want to run away to a shelter or someplace safe. But I can't do it if my family will find me and take me back home. Sometimes I wish they'd just kick me out already so this would be easier.
My grandparents are a worse case. I lived with them majority of my life and still live with them part-time and recently we just can't get along. It leads to them hitting me, choking me, and breaking my things. I've stopped crying about like I did when I was younger but it still hurts. My grandpa hates me and constantly talks about throwing me out while my grandma might love me, she does most of the hitting. They try and justify it but I don't really know if there's anything to justify. I feel like I have no one to talk to since I have no other family members and I'd never trust my friends with this.
I live currently in Florida and I just want to run away to a shelter or someplace safe. But I can't do it if my family will find me and take me back home. Sometimes I wish they'd just kick me out already so this would be easier.
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