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Both of my parents are suicidal and I'm tired of being their therapist.
This is a long post. Slight background, my parents were together for 16 years. They are Ukrainian immigrants living in the U.S. Im 16 years old born in the U.S.
I want to runaway. So my parents are currently living seperate with a long history of jail time, domestic abuse, and a bunch of other crap. Both of my parents are suicidal, each handling it different.
My dad is an overprotective and violent freak that is pagan(believes in mutiple gods). When I was 9 I remember running into the bathroom seeing a butcher knife in his hands and his arms and chest cut up. He also throughout my life burned or destroyed furniture, out kitchen table being replaced every 3 months. If we got a couch it would last a month beofre it was ripped up. Fortunately he never physically abused anyone but our walls were filled with holes from his tantrums. Meanwhile he tells me that he loves me and wants the best for me, and he proves that financially.
Now my mom on the other hand is a two faced christian. She emotionally abuses and tries controls everyone. She is a hoarder who always had a bunch of junk scattered around the house. For every little thing she gets mad, and ends up slapping me to the point of once breaking my metal glasses. She tries to control my life and limits internet exposure. Even with the online school she will turn of the wifi and hide it for weeks at a time. I end up biking to the local library to do my work. I also can't get my own job as she makes me help with her peraonal cleanning business that I dont get paid for. I dont mind helping but she cant pressure me to pay for things when I cant earn money. She also says that she wished she was dead, and that because of me her life is ********ed up. Since she got pregnant from my dad she was forced to marry him.
Since they seperated a few months ago, my dad got a restriction order, restricting his access to our house, I live with my mom. Once in a while my dad will pick me up to visit me, but that ends with my mom getting angry as ******** when I return home, with her hitting me and taking away my phone and internet and loading me with chores. Once again, I dont mind helping around the house, but I believe I deserve respect.
Now, whenever im with my mom, all she does is talk about god and how the world will end soon and a bunch of other prophecies. (Im an athiest after reading through tbe whole bible 3 times and studying it). When im with my dad, all he talks about how my mom is a cheater and how she will return him. I want nothing to do with their relationship. They dont respect my boundaries.
How can I escape this toxic environment? I dont have a job, and wont have one due to my mom not wanting me to get a drivers lisence. I can wait until 18, but is there any other way before that?
I might as well note that although im only a sophmore at the high school, I was already offered a full ride scholorship at my local college, which I intend at taking, but once more that will be once im 18.
I want to runaway. So my parents are currently living seperate with a long history of jail time, domestic abuse, and a bunch of other crap. Both of my parents are suicidal, each handling it different.
My dad is an overprotective and violent freak that is pagan(believes in mutiple gods). When I was 9 I remember running into the bathroom seeing a butcher knife in his hands and his arms and chest cut up. He also throughout my life burned or destroyed furniture, out kitchen table being replaced every 3 months. If we got a couch it would last a month beofre it was ripped up. Fortunately he never physically abused anyone but our walls were filled with holes from his tantrums. Meanwhile he tells me that he loves me and wants the best for me, and he proves that financially.
Now my mom on the other hand is a two faced christian. She emotionally abuses and tries controls everyone. She is a hoarder who always had a bunch of junk scattered around the house. For every little thing she gets mad, and ends up slapping me to the point of once breaking my metal glasses. She tries to control my life and limits internet exposure. Even with the online school she will turn of the wifi and hide it for weeks at a time. I end up biking to the local library to do my work. I also can't get my own job as she makes me help with her peraonal cleanning business that I dont get paid for. I dont mind helping but she cant pressure me to pay for things when I cant earn money. She also says that she wished she was dead, and that because of me her life is ********ed up. Since she got pregnant from my dad she was forced to marry him.
Since they seperated a few months ago, my dad got a restriction order, restricting his access to our house, I live with my mom. Once in a while my dad will pick me up to visit me, but that ends with my mom getting angry as ******** when I return home, with her hitting me and taking away my phone and internet and loading me with chores. Once again, I dont mind helping around the house, but I believe I deserve respect.
Now, whenever im with my mom, all she does is talk about god and how the world will end soon and a bunch of other prophecies. (Im an athiest after reading through tbe whole bible 3 times and studying it). When im with my dad, all he talks about how my mom is a cheater and how she will return him. I want nothing to do with their relationship. They dont respect my boundaries.
How can I escape this toxic environment? I dont have a job, and wont have one due to my mom not wanting me to get a drivers lisence. I can wait until 18, but is there any other way before that?
I might as well note that although im only a sophmore at the high school, I was already offered a full ride scholorship at my local college, which I intend at taking, but once more that will be once im 18.
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