I'm 14 and my mom has had me suicidal more times than I can count.

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I'm 14 years old, and I'll be 15 in January... My mom is constantly yelling at me, telling me to go next door to my grandma's house because she's "afraid that if I'm not out of her sight, she'll kill me." (My mom referring to killing me) and just a few moments ago, I was doing chores and asked my sister if she knew where my speaker was, so I could listen to music as it helps my ADHD. My mother began to yell at me, telling me she was tired of me and to go to my room. It scared me and I got slightly defensive, raising my voice a bit, and she threw something at me so hard it left a bruise and started screaming at me to get out. I continued to put in an effort to do my chores but she wouldn't stop screaming "get out! Get out!" Over and over until I left. Halfway across the yard between the two houses, I met my grandfather whom she had called to come get me out of her sight. Things like this happen on a daily basis and I've gotten close to ending it multiple times. I don't want to call DCF or the cops for fear she'll take my phone which is my only way to contact my friends or anyone else. What do I do?

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

Thank you. I'll try and keep my head on straight, and I'll make sure to know when enough is enough.
Always,
Anon