My mom is verbally and physically abusive. She usually just screams at me and mocks me, but occasionally when she is really mad she attacks me. She makes excuses for herself and recently went through cancer treatment. Just because she used to have cancer, if I try to defend myself as she screams at me and talks about how I'm a terrible child, she tells me that she has cancer(not true, she finished her radiation therapy a month ago) and I shouldn't be "rude" to her. I want to run away. However, there are some complications:
Firstly, I don't want to leave my twin sister behind, even though my mom likes her a lot better than me, if I leave her behind, she will take my place as my mom's verbal punching bag, but I don't know how to explain to her that I am running away.
Secondly, there is the COVID19 pandemic, and I don't want to be infected. Thirdly, I need a way to keep safe from people who want to kill me and people who want to sexually exploit me, and there aren't any weapons in my house that I can take with me.
Fourthly, there is the matter of suspicion. How am I going to bathe on the streets so no one goes, "Oh look, there's a homeless kid hanging round there, he doesn't have any guardians, so no one will miss him." Or "Hey look, a homeless kid, we should get him to a shelter." How am I going to make sure no one figures out I'm a runaway?
Fifthly, there's the problem of shelter. My closest family is in Connecticut, and the rest are in Great Britain, so I can't turn up on anyone's door. I can't organize with my friend's parents whether they're willing to take me or not, because during the pandemic, I can only send gmail or google hangouts messages, and those are closely monitored by my parents, who have the passwords to my google account, which is a school account, they never would have let me have it otherwise. I am also reluctant to live on the streets because there are many crazy people who can harm you.
I hope someone can help with these, thank you.
Firstly, I don't want to leave my twin sister behind, even though my mom likes her a lot better than me, if I leave her behind, she will take my place as my mom's verbal punching bag, but I don't know how to explain to her that I am running away.
Secondly, there is the COVID19 pandemic, and I don't want to be infected. Thirdly, I need a way to keep safe from people who want to kill me and people who want to sexually exploit me, and there aren't any weapons in my house that I can take with me.
Fourthly, there is the matter of suspicion. How am I going to bathe on the streets so no one goes, "Oh look, there's a homeless kid hanging round there, he doesn't have any guardians, so no one will miss him." Or "Hey look, a homeless kid, we should get him to a shelter." How am I going to make sure no one figures out I'm a runaway?
Fifthly, there's the problem of shelter. My closest family is in Connecticut, and the rest are in Great Britain, so I can't turn up on anyone's door. I can't organize with my friend's parents whether they're willing to take me or not, because during the pandemic, I can only send gmail or google hangouts messages, and those are closely monitored by my parents, who have the passwords to my google account, which is a school account, they never would have let me have it otherwise. I am also reluctant to live on the streets because there are many crazy people who can harm you.
I hope someone can help with these, thank you.
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