i need to get away from my family but i have no where to go to

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this has been going on for as long as i know and i have no one to talk to about it. my mom is very manipulative and constantly makes post about everything that goes on at home.. last night i was up at 11 on the phone talking quietly and she comes downstairs to cuss me out. so i started crying since i was frustrated cause she does this all the time over a PHONE i was going to give her eventually once i got upstairs. later when i went upstairs i was in the bathroom crying cause i was mad and all i hear is her yelling then just to hear the door get kicked down for no reason when i was right next to it about to open it.. i went into my room (i genuinely don’t even remember anything but) where i was followed by my grandma and mom who both tag up against me and constantly want to provoke me and make me mad and it seems like they do it on purpose. my mom started saying sarcastic things to my grandma so i replied and said things like “i don’t care about you all i never did and never will” stuff like that cause truly i don’t and i’m so fed up with everything that goes on around ME and never my sisters. no matter how much i try to keep to myself i’m always bothered and yelled at, i get i may have an attitude but it’s the way i’m talked to that makes me come back at them the same way so i don’t understand why they get so mad about it. anyways when i was in my room my mom told me to “get the ******** out my house since you don’t care about me” so i listened and walked out the house while she was already messing up my room and bed just casually ripping my sheets off. while i was out i remember hearing yelling saying “where is she” “you should’ve watched where she was going” and i went down the road sitting on a staircase. when i walked home and was CALMED DOWN i was getting cussed out by my “grandma” saying “there u are” “stressing my ********ing daughter out” “you heathen” when i was literally trying to lay back down for school and just having her go back and forth with me when she’s supposed to be the bigger person and just shut up. but when i said “please go get out..” i get told “i’m a ********ing adult i don’t need to go out stop trying to get the last word in” when i’m sitting here trying to end the “conversation” and just get her to shut up for once. but this morning i was calmed down scrolling through facebook just to see my mom post something about sending me to a boot camp saying “all my fb friends i need help finding a boot camp for my 13 year old daughter who is ABUSIVE...” when i’m not even abusive. and the ONLY times i’ve ever put my hands on anyone is when i was getting CHOKED AGAINST MY BED where i could barely get up, but it seems to be okay since an old barely 56 year old was choking me. also when we were “arguing” my mom and grandma were talking about taking me to court for being “abusive” which i’m not and saying “i can defend your grandma and say she’s on disability when you’re putting your hands on her” (i was defending myself from getting choked cause that’s not how you discipline a kid and pushed her off of me....) and my grandma faked her way into getting disability.. i’m not sure how but i know she done it.. anyways i don’t know what to do and being in this house just makes me go even more crazy in my own head i can’t stay here and i don’t think i can go to anyone’s house, i have no family in ga and i don’t want to bother any of my friends. please help.

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS