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Hello....I'm thinking about running away...and just thought i'd post something here to see if I got an answer.
I'm 13. Here's my story.
I've been thinking about running away for a long time now. People might say that i'm just a young kid and I don't know what I'm talking about. Maybe i'm better off than a lot of kids, but i'm still miserable where I am.
BOTH my parents have mental issues. My father was severely abused when he was a young child, and my mom is extremely bi polar and vicious. Not vicious as in, beating, physical vicious, but verbally vicious. She and my father constantly argue every day (more than once) about the littlest things that would normally not make a difference. They go into shrieking frenzies that can last for hours. Normally, nothing is thrown. Occasionally there can be a flying object. My parents are attempting to turn me against the other, by telling me bad stories about what the other one did to them. They are also forever telling me about how the other parent is the problem, not themselves. They are both very irrisponsible and not trustworthy. My parents refuse to divorce, even though i've given them a hundred reasons why. My mother says that if they get divorced, she'd rather raise me on wellfare then let my dad have me all the time, basically. She also says that we might be better off.
My mother is currently participating in a group called RC. I will not go into the details about what this group is about because i'm not entirely sure myself. But she became active in this group when I turned 8 or 9. I think the point of this group is to let out all your feelings and have "Sessions" with people where you talk about your problems and such. When she began, it really did help her, and she was nicer than usual. As time went on, she sort of started getting addicted to it...people always call her, and she's forever talking on the phone to one of her RC contacts. She also tells people about the personal things that are going on between her, me, and my dad. When I told her that I was uncomfortable with her sharing these things with people, she told me she could tell anyone whatever she wanted. Not only are my parents a huge problem, but I am under a lot of stress from kids from school. I don't really want to go into detail, but i'm currently having problems with a messy break-up of mine, which features a very nasty girl. Also, one of my "friends" has turned against me because she no longer has control of me. She was a definite control freak, and just today I finally yelled at her. She wants to know what i'm doing, who i'm seeing, talking to, what i'm talking to them about, etc. She refuses to understand that I no longer want her around, and she also posesses some of my very humilating secrets.
Me and another friend of mine were recently talking, and we thought that maybe I should run away. I am constantly living in fear and anger of my parents and how they do not respect me. I wanted to come here first and see if anyone had a comment to make.
Lastly, I had never considered cutting myself until a little while ago. It had usually gone against all my morals in life about not giving up. But recently, i have seriously started to consider it, and that frightens me the most.
I hope someone has an answer for me.
I'm 13. Here's my story.
I've been thinking about running away for a long time now. People might say that i'm just a young kid and I don't know what I'm talking about. Maybe i'm better off than a lot of kids, but i'm still miserable where I am.
BOTH my parents have mental issues. My father was severely abused when he was a young child, and my mom is extremely bi polar and vicious. Not vicious as in, beating, physical vicious, but verbally vicious. She and my father constantly argue every day (more than once) about the littlest things that would normally not make a difference. They go into shrieking frenzies that can last for hours. Normally, nothing is thrown. Occasionally there can be a flying object. My parents are attempting to turn me against the other, by telling me bad stories about what the other one did to them. They are also forever telling me about how the other parent is the problem, not themselves. They are both very irrisponsible and not trustworthy. My parents refuse to divorce, even though i've given them a hundred reasons why. My mother says that if they get divorced, she'd rather raise me on wellfare then let my dad have me all the time, basically. She also says that we might be better off.
My mother is currently participating in a group called RC. I will not go into the details about what this group is about because i'm not entirely sure myself. But she became active in this group when I turned 8 or 9. I think the point of this group is to let out all your feelings and have "Sessions" with people where you talk about your problems and such. When she began, it really did help her, and she was nicer than usual. As time went on, she sort of started getting addicted to it...people always call her, and she's forever talking on the phone to one of her RC contacts. She also tells people about the personal things that are going on between her, me, and my dad. When I told her that I was uncomfortable with her sharing these things with people, she told me she could tell anyone whatever she wanted. Not only are my parents a huge problem, but I am under a lot of stress from kids from school. I don't really want to go into detail, but i'm currently having problems with a messy break-up of mine, which features a very nasty girl. Also, one of my "friends" has turned against me because she no longer has control of me. She was a definite control freak, and just today I finally yelled at her. She wants to know what i'm doing, who i'm seeing, talking to, what i'm talking to them about, etc. She refuses to understand that I no longer want her around, and she also posesses some of my very humilating secrets.
Me and another friend of mine were recently talking, and we thought that maybe I should run away. I am constantly living in fear and anger of my parents and how they do not respect me. I wanted to come here first and see if anyone had a comment to make.
Lastly, I had never considered cutting myself until a little while ago. It had usually gone against all my morals in life about not giving up. But recently, i have seriously started to consider it, and that frightens me the most.
I hope someone has an answer for me.
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