I've wanted to move out for a while but honestly I have no idea how to do that. I've had enough of the toxic dynamic within my family's household.
I had gotten into a not-so-mature argument with my sister yesterday which resulted in her slamming my head into the car door and then ditching me on the side of the road. Our mother had to pick me up and did not bother to ask for my side of the situation at all but rather guilted me for my side and nagged me the whole car ride home about other things. I understand their side, but I'm tired of being around individuals who aren't capable of being considerate and lack empathy towards me,
That situation honestly has pushed me past my limit. That's how they always respond to issues, it's always my fault and no one even cares to apologize to me at all , not genuinely or without a "but" in it at least. I've packed a backpack full of some essential belongings (and some snacks just in case) and I'm most likely taking the train in the afternoon to a different state but I have no idea where to go or what to actually do and it horrifies me. But I'd rather initiate some sort of change than deal with this situation that feels emotionally and mentally crippling.
I don't really have any friends or know anyone who could help me out, but even if I did I don't know if I'd feel comfortable just suddenly asking if I can stay over and crash for a while when I don't know what I can even contribute to this world in the first place. I don't have much of a skill set or much money but I just want to finally get a move on with my life, even if it means putting myself in this sort of dangerous situation.
I had gotten into a not-so-mature argument with my sister yesterday which resulted in her slamming my head into the car door and then ditching me on the side of the road. Our mother had to pick me up and did not bother to ask for my side of the situation at all but rather guilted me for my side and nagged me the whole car ride home about other things. I understand their side, but I'm tired of being around individuals who aren't capable of being considerate and lack empathy towards me,
That situation honestly has pushed me past my limit. That's how they always respond to issues, it's always my fault and no one even cares to apologize to me at all , not genuinely or without a "but" in it at least. I've packed a backpack full of some essential belongings (and some snacks just in case) and I'm most likely taking the train in the afternoon to a different state but I have no idea where to go or what to actually do and it horrifies me. But I'd rather initiate some sort of change than deal with this situation that feels emotionally and mentally crippling.
I don't really have any friends or know anyone who could help me out, but even if I did I don't know if I'd feel comfortable just suddenly asking if I can stay over and crash for a while when I don't know what I can even contribute to this world in the first place. I don't have much of a skill set or much money but I just want to finally get a move on with my life, even if it means putting myself in this sort of dangerous situation.
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