Living in my parents home is depressing

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Background info: I'm a rising senior who is turning 17 this summer.
Ever since I was a child, I was beaten for messing up or forgetting things. I was raised strictly, and my parents only changed for awhile when sibling number three arrived. They stopped physical beating too. I have given them chance after chance and I cannot live with them anymore. I nearly killed myself once because my parents are never satisfied with me. Nothing is good enough anymore. Straight A's in honors classes? Not good enough. Using my time working a job to pay THEIR BILLS? Not good enough. This morning she cried because I looked like a "slob" wearing a graphic tee and athletic shorts. At home. During covid 19 when nobody can go anywhere. I'm treated different from my siblings: I'm constantly singled out and strung by the neck for things I can't control or didn't do. I've had it. I'm depressed out of my mind and it's running me into the ground. This toxic environment is not healthy for me, and I want to go and live somewhere else. I would be able to support myself because I have resources and a job. I'm in Kentucky.
Please help me.

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Hello,
Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We would like to be of assistance to you if we can. It is times like these that would be nice to have a listening ear. It is also important that you remember to exercise self- care. You showed some by reaching out to NRS. Good for you. What you have been experiencing sounds very sad and very, very unfair. You do not deserve to be treated this way by your parents. It’s not your fault that they behave this way. It sounds like this has been emotionally troubling for you. Your feelings are important and they matter. You are deserving as anyone that wants to be happy.

It sounds like you would like to make a new start. We understand how frustrating it must be for you. NRS is here to listen and here to help.
We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat so that we might learn a little more about your situation and how we might assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

If you are depressed or at risk from thoughts of suicide, we encourage you to reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

You did a great job by reaching out to NRS.


Take care,
NRS