I don’t know what to do

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I’m 14 and I have already ran away once before, I promised my parents I wouldn’t do it again but I can’t take it here anymore, I haven’t seen my girlfriend in a month and it’s driving me mad so I am going to run away to her house for a while. But I’m not completely sure if I want to leave or not… I’m stuck in an in between state and I don’t know what to do… even thinking about it gives me anxiety. I’ve had suicidal thoughts and have been really depressed here but my parents won’t take it seriously… and it honestly doesn’t feel like home here anymore. I only make things worse rather then fix things. My family will be better off without me and I think I’ll be better off without them too…

sincerely,

~qz

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Hello There,
Thank you so much for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. It sounds like you are going through a really difficult time right now, and we want you to know that you are not alone.
It must be hard not to see your girlfriend in over a month, right now with everything going on in the world a lot of people are stuck at home. One option to consider is keeping in touch with your girlfriend through phone calls and text messages. Another option could be to FaceTime or use skype to be able to see each other.
As far as running away, we are not legal experts but we do have some information. If you were to leave home your parents could file a runaway report and if the police were to find you they most likely would bring you back home.
You mentioned having suicidal thoughts and we want you to know that we are here for you. Your life is valuable and you are worth living. Suicide is a permanent decision to a temporary situation. If you are having suicidal thoughts or need someone to talk to please contact National Suicide Prevention Hotline at: 1800-273-8255. There is always someone willing to listen and willing to provide support.
We hope that this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any more questions or would like to explore options please give us a call. We are here 24/7 to listen and to provide support. Best of luck!
NRS