My family is severely toxic and i cant take it anymore

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My mother has a husband. He is a misogynist. He constantly calls me a slut, hooker, and more sexually insulting names. I havent done anything to receive these names at all. Not only, but he constantly calls me fat, fatty, and frequently mentions that i will eventually go to fat camp and i will be 300 pounds in a couple years. I hardly eat though and according to a BMI chart im underweight. Hes extremely scary to be around. He grounds me for no reasom, i literally can breathe and he'll get super mad. Hes tried kicking me out several times though my mom always takes me back in. He throws and breaks my stuff and my mastress and all my basic utilities when he is mad at me. And as unbelievable as it is, i never do anything to deserve it. My mother just watches it happen, but on rare occasions they get in arguments because of his behavior and more than 3x has he threated to kill himself and he saya this while holding our biggest knife. He has threatened that if i was a guy he'd break all my bones and has grabbed my arms roughly a couple of times while blocking me from moving to get away. Not only, but several times he has purposely spit on me and often screams in my face to the point i can smell and feel his nasty breathe. I have told my school counselor and she said she couldnt help. I feel like no one can at this point, but suicide is not the option i want to take. In my town theres no youth shelters or any of that such. And apparently CPS only helps when being physically abused severely and usually are still unhelpful. There is nothing i can do but i cant live like this much longer.

Is there a way i can escape this?

ps. Im a minor

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Hello,
Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We would like to be of assistance to you if we can. It is times like these that would be nice to have a listening ear. It is also important that you remember to exercise self- care. You showed some by reaching out to NRS. Good for you. What you have been experiencing sounds very sad and very, very unfair. You do not deserve to be treated this way. It’s not your fault that he behaves this way. It sounds verbally, emotionally and physically abusive. You deserve to feel safe at home.
It sounds like you reached out to a school counselor but they were not very helpful. We’re sorry to hear that. To report any abuse you might consider contacting Child Help abuse hotline 1-800-422-4453 you can visit their website at www.childhelp.org
This is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone trustworthy as far as transferring custody

NRS is here to help and here to listen.
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