run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

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yeah, I don't see eye to eye with my parents.
I have three younger siblings all crazy.

my grades in school are mad good... 95 average... I am in 11th grade. 17 years old, 18 July 3rd.

tons of great friends, involved in my school's music department...

anyway, my whole life, even when people are accepting of me, I never seem to fit in anywhere.

I'm sure all kids want to be things like Jedi Knights, power rangers, some rebel taking over a corrupted government... and the list could go on forever

but I still do. I really feel like I live in the wrong country or century... or something like that... I want to run away and end up in something where I can fight for the greater good, but remain detached from the world... "A true hero ends up alone."

I get what I want is lonely, and that sucks... but I need true freedom, or I don't know how I'll ever be happy

I want wild, icy freedom

or maybe just run away to some southern state and live on a farm with horses... work on the farm and finish high school... then use college to escape.


So I'm sure I sound insane... but have any advice or guidance?

anyone else ever feel this way? or just me?

I always seem to be the exception

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Re: run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

I feel like that a lot.... My advice? Finish highschool first, maybe get a college education first as well. No one follows a hero who is a minor and a drop out.... A college grad? Much more likely.

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Re: run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

I feel the exact same way. I get great grades, I make tons of friends... But I don't care! I guess there is an instinct in everybody (or at least some) that drags away from the sleeping crowd, to go wild.
Yesterday, I asked my friends where and when they would rather be born if they could choose anything, and they couldn't imagine anything but present time where they were. I couldn't believe it, since I wish myself to the Scottish highlands in 1304 (William Wallace etc.) or something like that. As Tyler Durden says in Fight Club: We have no great depression, no great war, no great nothing. We live in the most boring period of history. So some seek away from this, such as Christopher McCandless, who wandered to Alaska. As Ernest Hemingway said: "Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know". Then perhaps intelligent people are the only ones realizing all this.

You're not alone.

[Guest]

Re: run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

some times i want to go to a happy place my uncle in texas has a farm

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Re: run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

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Re: run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

So I wrote out a really long reply... then my computer crapped out on me... &&it's 11:30pm and I still have hmwrk... >.<

So, I will try to rewrite my reply tomorrow, but most of all: thanks everyone for listening and commenting. nice to know I am no completely alone in the way my mind is wired

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Re: run away for adventure... well not really, except seriously

Hello,

We truly wish the best for you and appreciate your bravery. We imagine it is not easy to go through this issue alone but we are glad to see that you recognize that you are not alone. We are always here for you when you need us and look forward to hearing from you soon. We are here for you 24 hours a day. We are confidential and anonymous. We see that you are doing what you have to and we are happy for you. Please continue to strive for excellence and keep hope alive. Good luck.

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