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    Hi. I’m 12 years old and my family life feels like hell. My parents genuinely don’t care about me. They never take responsibility when they hit me or make me cry. Recently I’ve been sobbing a lot and they make fun of me for it. Recently I told them about my suicide attempts.My mom said I should just do it. They didn’t care. They asked my if it worked and when I said it didn’t they told me to go back to my work. It’s been hell. I’ve told the school; I got a mentor for two weeks and my mom teased me for it. I don’t want to die. I just want to leave.

  • #2
    Hi there,

    Thank you for taking to the time to post on our Bulletin. It can definitely be stressful and overwhelming when the adults at home are not supportive. Home is supposed to be somewhere you feel safe and it is not okay that your parents hit you and make you cry. You deserve to be treated in a way that makes you feel safe and cared for.

    It was very brave of you to tell your mom and someone at your school about your suicide attempt. It takes a lot of strength to cope with hard feelings. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 ( is always available if you need someone to talk to about how you have been feeling. If you ever feel that you are in danger or at risk of harming yourself you can call 911 for emergency medical services.

    You do have the option to report what has been going on at home to child protective services. This would open an investigation and a social worker would talk to you and your parents about what has been happening. The social worker's job is to provide you and your family any services that might be helpful like counseling and possibly have you live somewhere else if they decide that home is not safe. You can talk to someone at your school like a counselor or your mentor to have a report made or you can contact Child Help. Child Help is an organization that advocates for young people in abusive or unsafe situations and they can help you with the reporting process. You can contact them at 1-800-422-4453 or go to to learn more.

    We truly want to be a support for you as you decide on your next steps. We are available 24/7 to listen and help as much as possible. Please do not hesitate to reach out again by phone or chat if you would like to talk more in-depth about your situation and explore your options. You can contact us by phone at 1-800-786-2929 or use our live chat services at

    Stay safe,
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    Tell us what you think about your experience!


    • #3
      so did my mom she didnt care that my dad abused me nonstop im 13 and am suicidal depresed and have ptsd


      • ccsmod8
        ccsmod8 commented
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        Hello there –

        Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to reach out to us here at the National Runaway Safeline on our public forum. Hopefully by giving you support during your crisis, there are others that are reading this thread that can feel comfortable reaching out as well. We are always here to listen and here to help in any way that we can. It seems like you have really connected with another poster here and also might be looking for some support during your situation.

        If you have a specific question that you can't find the answer to on any of these threads or maybe find a place to vent about what you are feeling right now, you can always call us. It’s hard to talk to just anyone one about what has been going on. Please reach out via phone or even our online chat for more help.

        We hope to hear from you so that we can help you further.

    • #4
      i’m searching online like who to go to when your mom tells you to kill yourself & to do it now. i’m tempting to do it just bc how much i hate her & to put all the blame on her. and if i do do it she’s gonna say it’s not her fault & it’s my fault i can’t get my ******** together. i don’t know who to go to and how to get out of this house. she has told me several times to cut myself to kill myself & to do it good & not go to the hospital,, but at my therapist oh she’s the victims ughhhhhh i don’t know what to do & im just venting here kinda & im not sure if this is the right place to do it sorry if it isn’t


      • ccsmod3
        ccsmod3 commented
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        Hi there, thank you for reaching out to the forum. It sounds like you're feeling enraged and hopeless because your mother is ordering you to end your life. Nobody deserves to be told that. It sounds like it's especially horrible because she consistently wishes harm upon you and then blames the issues between you two solely on you.

        You deserve the space to talk to someone about how she treats you and explore what your options are. The Childhelp National Child Abuse Hotline found here may be a good resource for you to explore.

        You can always reach out to us through phone at 1.800.RUNAWAY or talk to us through our online chat to talk further about your options. We are here for 24/7 crisis support. Take care, and may you find the support you need!

    • #5
      Hi, I will not be giving out my name as I am unsure of anything, but please do call me K.

      When I was only 4/5 years old, my mom couldn't afford to take care of me, so she sent me to my aunt, I was obviously very unhappy with that ofcourse. Anyways I think about 6 years later, my mom finally came for me, I was so excited, ready for a new life with my very own mom.

      I love my aunt, I thanked her for everything she has done for me. Anyways, I'm now 14, with 2 sisters living with me, my mom and step dad. When I first got to my mom, everything was going pretty smoothly, I so far loved it. We went out and had loads of fun.

      I later realized that my mom didn't even care about me, infact she hated me. She even said it of her own mouth. The slightest things that could happen she would curse me for it, she even beat me with objects. She's a horse rider so, she beat me with her whip not once but 3 times before. 1 and a half year (s) ago, my mom had a very beautiful baby girl, now this is where everything really started to stress me out.

      Since we couldn't afford to even get a babysitter, my mom didn't even ask if I could watch my sister till she gets from work, she just put my baby sister on me and my other sister (10). My mom said she'd pay us some money whilst we watched her. I was kinda okay with the idea, but after a while I got tired of it. I couldn't say that ofcourse, because she's my mom. She payed us only 5 times out of the many months we've been taking care of my sister.

      When school reopened, a lot of pressure went on my brain, tests, homework and a whole lot more. My mom isn't even a big help either, she just sits around, curse me and beat me. I started to self harm, not for attention but as a punishment, I was only 11 when I started, so I thought that I wasn't good enough so I did that to punish myself for not being a better person. My mom has told me to go kill myself several times. I try my hardest every single day, just to make this lady happy. Am I really not good enough?

      I developed a lot of hatred for myself when I started high-school.

      The more my mom yells at me, and the more school keeps stressing me out, is the more my mind tells me to go kill myself just like my mom said. At this one point when I was home alone, and I was washing the dishes, I took up a cutting knife, looking at it, remembering what my mom told me to do. I eventually put it at my neck, ready to just finally end it. I told myself, do it, remember mom told you to so, plus all her stress and problems would be gone, her perfect life would finally be here if I'm gone. Whilst in that thought, my grandma called. So basically if it wasn't for that one call, I wouldn't even be writing this at 8:40 p.m.

      I really need to know if I'm such a big problem to my mom, that she would tell me to go kill myself.

      (P.S , thanks to my friend "J" I can laugh every now and then)....


      • ccsmod15
        ccsmod15 commented
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        Hi there,
        Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
        Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
        If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); (click on the chat button).
        We hope to hear from you soon.
        Be safe and stay strong,

    • #6
      hi I'm 14 and my tells me to kill myself almost everyday, she has physically abused me for the past few years and now she's saying she'll do it again. she always says I should've aborted you and stuff like go in front of a car, I have tried comitting many times yet it never worked. I'm so tired of everyone at this point I don't wanna die I just wanna leave this place. my mother always says that its my fault my father died and that I'm bad luck. I used to even do self harm to get through this but now I stopped, honestly I'm really close to doing it again. my mom always blames everything on me. even if the world was ending she would blame it on me. I just wanna run away from this place and never come back. even my older uncle says its my fault my mom yells at me, I don't even talk to her. and my grandmother too all she does is make me and other family members the villain and herself the victim. I'm so tired of this ********ing family ******** this ********


      • ccsmod11
        ccsmod11 commented
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        (If you are in danger for any reason, please call the police or go to your local emergency room).

        Hi there,
        Thanks so much for reaching out to us. There is a LOT going on at home right now that isn't right. We want to do our best to help as you try to navigate a tricky situation.

        It sounds like thoughts of hurting yourself have been around for a while. We are always here to listen when things get tough in your head, or our friends over at 988 Suicide Lifeline would be more than happy to chat with you ( You might also visit this website to find strength in reading stories from young people (

        Additionally, you mentioned a few things that raise concern for your safety at home. If you are being abused, even verbally, you have the right to report it. We can talk to you more about the process of filing an abuse report and what happens after, or you can visit our friends at Child Help ( to learn more.

        Again, what's going on at home isn't okay and you're right to feel done with it all. If there are any friends, family, teachers, or other trusted adults you feel comfortable leaning on during this time for support, we would really encourage that!

        Finally, it sounds like you're thinking about running away from home. We would love to help talk you through a safe plan and share some important facts to know about running away. The NRS is available 24/7 via online chat or by calling 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929). We hope to hear from you soon!

        Best of luck,

    • #7
      I am a grandmother of a runaway. Please call some of these numbers provided. They can help, take you our of a dangerous place & provide a place to live. You don't have to be alone. You must give them your name & contact information in order for them to help. I pray you do that. Don't to to the streets. There is help available. I pray my granddaughter can find this place.



      • ccsmod11
        ccsmod11 commented
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        Thank you for your comment, we hope you are able to reach your granddaughter soon. If you ever need a listening ear, we are here to support you 24/7 via online chat or by phone (1-800-RUNAWAY). We are grateful for adults like you who care about young people going through tough times.
        Thank you again!
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