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    I'm ready to run away.

    The past couple of years I have been dealing with anxiety and depression. In my freshman year of high school, my parents put immense pressure on me to
    do excellent. I was going to an incredibly advanced school, and my anxiety and depression made me feel as though I was fading away. I didn't get enough
    sleep, got poor grades, and had trouble focusing in school and away from school. Although I seemed happy to my friends and family, I was going through
    emotional pain. My parents wanted an explanation for my grades and poor behavior, but it was too difficult to explain to them what I was dealing with.
    Eventually I did, and told them that I wanted to go to a Psychologist. My Psychologist diagnosed me with generalized anxiety disorder.
    My mother was somewhat supportive of me, but my father thought that I just wanted attention. Since then, I've had multiple Psychologist appointments,
    transferred to a new school, and received a special plan that does help me with some of the previous problems I had. I thought that transferring to a
    new, easier school would help me immensely.

    I was wrong.

    My relationship with my parents has gotten worse since the beginning of this year. I haven't had a Psychologist appointment in a few months.
    My parents have lost all trust in me, and I've even been told that I have caused hell for our family. Focusing at school is impossible, as I constantly
    miss important points in lectures, forget assignments, and can't work when there is noise. The "special plan" that I have with my school has sort of
    helped, but I still have trouble. Focusing at home is even worse, and I often don't start my homework until very late. I feel like I have lost all
    control of my thoughts, actions, and have caused my parents pain. My parents told me that if I don't start getting better grades and begin homework
    earlier they are going to pull me out of school. I feel like I have ADHD and other (more complex) anxiety disorders

    My mental problems have ruined my life, and spun me out of control. I've thought about committing suicide, but I would rather run away.

    I do not know what to do.

    I feel like an idiot who is going insane, but I don't know how to explain my issues to my parents with detail. My parents will blame me for my problems,
    and all I want to do is run away and start a new life.

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    I'm 15 and I'm ready to run away

    Thanks for contacting the National Runaway Safeline.

    What you have experienced might have been be hard for many people in your situation.
    It is not easy to deal with the pressures that come from the expectations of others.

    You are to be commended for taking to therapy and trying to get control of the feelings of stress and anxiety. No should expect this to be an easy situation to turn around.

    You are not an idiot for going through a crisis.
    There may be methods that you and your therapist can discuss about sitting down with your parents in an attempt to understand what it has been like for you.

    Does that make sense?

    We appreciate your being so open to talk about your situation.
    Good job.

    NRS is here to listen and here to help.
    If you would like to talk and maybe explore some other options please contact NRS at 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) or (live chat).

    Take care,
    Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

    National Runaway Safeline
    [email protected] (Crisis Email)
    1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)

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