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i don’t know what to do anymore. i’m 14 years old female , and it’s constantly on my mind i should just kill myself. i’ve cut myself badly in the past and have scars all over me. i live with my father in new york and my mom lives out of state. i miss her so much and want to be with her badly. the ACS has shown up many times because of my dad and my stepmom , the constant verbal and emotional abuse told i’m “too ungrateful” or “too emotional” and everything is my fault as always. i’ve though about running away but i know he would find me. i’m scared of my father honestly and child protection services is ALWAYS ON HIS SIDE. they have been since third grade!! 5 years i’ve had no support since my mom left me here and took my half siblings( who aren’t related to my father) back to her home state. i really want to be with her and i don’t kno how to get out of this basically stockholm syndrome situation. i always feel guilty for not wanting to live in new york with my dad and his kids with my stepmom but i can’t do it anymore, if i get yelled at i cry even if it’s not my dad i’m always living in fear of him or in the past there was physical abuse but it seems to always be looked over by ACS which is so dumb. i’m sorry but i tried my best i don’t think i can keep living like this. constant pain and sadness and emptiness. mom i’m gonna miss you , my siblings. all 7 of you i never got along with w you other then my sister i’ll miss you the most. my friends i’ll miss u guys thanks for getting me through 14 years. i turn 14 friday and i’ve decided it might just be enough for me. thanks for listening
soon goodbye ********ty life maybe i’ll see my family in heaven or be reborn into a happy family
i don’t know what to do anymore. i’m 14 years old female , and it’s constantly on my mind i should just kill myself. i’ve cut myself badly in the past and have scars all over me. i live with my father in new york and my mom lives out of state. i miss her so much and want to be with her badly. the ACS has shown up many times because of my dad and my stepmom , the constant verbal and emotional abuse told i’m “too ungrateful” or “too emotional” and everything is my fault as always. i’ve though about running away but i know he would find me. i’m scared of my father honestly and child protection services is ALWAYS ON HIS SIDE. they have been since third grade!! 5 years i’ve had no support since my mom left me here and took my half siblings( who aren’t related to my father) back to her home state. i really want to be with her and i don’t kno how to get out of this basically stockholm syndrome situation. i always feel guilty for not wanting to live in new york with my dad and his kids with my stepmom but i can’t do it anymore, if i get yelled at i cry even if it’s not my dad i’m always living in fear of him or in the past there was physical abuse but it seems to always be looked over by ACS which is so dumb. i’m sorry but i tried my best i don’t think i can keep living like this. constant pain and sadness and emptiness. mom i’m gonna miss you , my siblings. all 7 of you i never got along with w you other then my sister i’ll miss you the most. my friends i’ll miss u guys thanks for getting me through 14 years. i turn 14 friday and i’ve decided it might just be enough for me. thanks for listening
soon goodbye ********ty life maybe i’ll see my family in heaven or be reborn into a happy family
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