What do I do?

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I'm 17 years old and Ill be 18 in January and right now, well for the past 2 years I haven't been happy with my mother. She has this girlfriend that shes been doing everything to please her and not caring about me and my siblings. We have been constanly moving and changing schools just so she could live closer to her. She doesn't actually love the lady because she has been cheating on her. Shes only staying with her because of the money. But yeah, When she first was involved in our family I was depressed. On this day, We didnt have any food and they went out to eat and I didnt want to go because I didnt have any clean clothes so I was hit and everything got taken away from me. I popped pills that day because I was having a breakdown,and My mother didnt ride in the ambulance with me, she rode with her girlfriend.She told me after I was stable that I was stupid and she didn't talk to me for 3 days. So her girlfriend hated me since that day. We moved closer to her and Long story short, she kicked me out the house in the winter of my birthday and called the cops and said I was a run away. I told her I wanted to kill myself and she said do it.There is more in between but I doubt anyone wants to hear it. But recently, Me and My siblings got in trouble for ice. Literally, Ice. Her girlfriend eats ice, and she blamed us for it and we got punished and screamed at for it. I wanted to leave the house at that moment, but Im in a new location again and I dont know where anything is. My friends in my last school, dont want me to live with her anymore. They want me to leave as soon as I turn 18 but I dont know where to start. She refuses to let me get a job.

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RE: What do I do?

Hello there,
Thanks for posting on our forum. We’re so sorry to hear about how mom has been relocating the family for this person that she isn’t really in love with. It sounds there’s physical abuse happening as well. That is not ok. You deserve to be treated with dignity and respect. It sounds like everything has been really hard for you lately, we’re really glad you came to us. You’re very courageous for speaking up.
It sounds like you tried to hurt yourself as a means to cope with these hard changes and rough treatment you’ve been getting at home. We’re so sorry to hear that. We want you to be safe. We’re here to talk to you about a plan to keep yourself safe if you’d like. You can give us a call here at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or you could always try reaching out at http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Speaking of the abuse mentioned at home, you have the right to report anything you suspect is abusive behavior towards you. We want you to know we’re here for you if you decide to do this and want some support. You can always call us and someone here could conference call with you to a CPS hotline to report what is happening to you. If you’re wondering about what could happen if you report or about reporting in general, please visit www.childhelp.org.
We really want to make sure you have a plan for when you decide to leave. We’re not able to tell you what to do, but we’d be more than happy to talk about your situation in more detail and help you come up with a plan that works for you. We’re available to talk 24/7 and all of our services are confidential. Please consider calling or trying our Live Chat right here on this website.
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